Thursday, 15 July 2010

02:33 in the morning.

It’s 02:33 in the morning and I have tears streaming down my face so fast I can barely see what I’m writing. My boyfriend left two & a half hours ago and right now he’s sitting in a service station drinking overpriced coffee and eating an overpriced muffin. But he shouldn’t be there, he should be here!

It absolutely breaks my heart having to say goodbye to him knowing that it’ll be weeks before I get to see him again. Watching him drive away down the street or standing on the platform waiting for the train that will take me 300 miles away are the moments that I always dread.

I get asked all the time why we ‘bother’ with a long distance relationship and the question baffles me every time. Why would be break up when he’s the one I want to spend the rest of my life with? As hard as it is now, one day we’ll get married, buy a cute little cottage in the countryside and start a family together. So in reality, what are a few years of distance when we have all that to look forward to one day?

Until then skype will just have to suffice, but I'll continue to long for the day that the long goodbyes will come to an end.

xoxo

20 comments:

  1. Before you know it, you'll be together again.:D

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  2. n'aw your doing so well jennie, long distance relationships are certainly worth having as long as you work at them and i know you both do. your perfect for each other.
    lots of love xxxx

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  3. why don't you move to where ever he is? Get a job, get a flat and live with him? I couldn't cope long distance from my other half, we were only an hour apart and I hated it we both ended up practically living with each other. Now we are married and have been living together 4 years. scrimping and saving every penny in our crappy jobs so we can stay together. I understand why you 'bother', you love him, and its an over riding feeling, and thats something most people wont understand unless they have really felt it. But I don't get why you don't just do something about it! Sorry if I sound harsh I don't mean too. Is your other half in halls? Coz obviously that means you can't move in but if he is in rented then you can! or you can get somewhere together. I hope you can work out a way to stop yourself feeling down because being apart from your loved one really is the worst feeling in the world as far as I am concerned!

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  4. @marie :)

    @tennille - thank you sweetie! that means a lot <3

    @chantele - Unfortunately things aren't always as simple as they appear to be on the surface. His wonderful daddy isn't very well right now and so understandably he doesn't want to move out just yet. He wants to be there and I want him to be there for him. They have such a wonderful relationship & I don't want him to miss out on anything. As much as I want to be selfish and have my boy all to myself I know that they need him more right now. Moving into a place close to his parents isn't really an option either. They live in the middle of nowhere where there aren't many job opportunities and I can't drive so I would be completely dependent on my boyfriend. That's not something I want, being independent is something that's very important to me. Those things combined with the family commitments I have here mean we're not in the right place to move in together. We have the rest of our lives for that, so instead we're going to use this time we have to spend apart for something positive and get ourselves settled in life and hopefully get into a good financial situation to make moving in together easier when the time comes. He's recently got a promotion at work which is keeping him busy and I'm so incredibly proud of him. I'm still finding my way to getting settled in life but that's something I need to figure out for myself like he has done.

    We'll get there eventually, I don't know when that'll be but it will be soon enough. I don't spend all day every day miserable, it's usually just the initial goodbye and the first day waking up alone that are the worst. Once those few hours are over then we get back into our little routine then it's okay.

    In many respects I'm lucky that I see him most months; there are many couples that live much further away from each other and only meet once or twice a year. At the moment having him in my life at all is something I'm incredibly thankful and grateful for. Finding someone who is willing to drive 300 miles just to see me makes my heart melt. He's so very worth it & makes up for those moments that hurt a thousand times over.

    xoxo

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  5. You sound really strong and I give you a lot of credit for dealing with this. I think it is great that you recognize that even though it is hard right now, it will be okay in the future. True love isn't something that should just be let go and given up on. Not because of distance or anything else. I think in the end this will only make you stronger as a couple, it sounds like it already is. I am sorry you have to be sad when you're not with him. But like you said, you have so much to look forward to. You're lucky to have each other. You definitely have the right attitude, stay strong! xo

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  6. @jennifer - Thank you! It just proves that because not everything is easy, it doesn't mean you should give up. I think that's been a big lesson for me to learn and I'm glad I understand that now. :)

    xoxo

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  7. Chin up lovely. One day you will no longer have to say goodbye to each other and it will of been worth doing the long distance thing :) Plus the moments you do get together must be very special for you both!

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  8. Aww I can totally understand how you feel! Chris and I have just moved back to our parents so that we can save money to eventually buy a house. We've been living together for a year and a half so it's tough but I know that it's for the best and it's the sensible thing to do. He's from Sheffield and I'm down in Surrey so it's quite a distance apart! That's the annoying thing with meeting at Uni! How did you both meet?

    As you said you just have to think for the future and think that this is only a small time in our lives when we hope to spent the rest of our lives together xxx

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  9. Love is such a funny thing is'nt it! So strong though, and ofcourse you 'bother' with the realtionship- if some thing makes you that happy, or you feel so strongly about something then there's no reason not to do it!
    I feel your pain, but I bet the excitment you get will out rule the hurt & why would you want to see him every day/week anyway- that would just get boring. I bet this keeps you realtionship alive & exciting.
    xxx

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  10. @ladybug - Thank you. They are very special :)

    @daisy - Aww as hard as that must be I definitely think that's a good idea. Being financially stable is always going to be a good thing.

    We've been long distance from the start after meeting through friends so I think it's been a little easier for us in that respect.

    @steph - Absolutely. There's no rush to move in together just yet. I think I'm a bit young for all the responsibilities that come with that hehe. We're young and enjoying it! :)

    xoxo

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  11. AWWW hunnie.. this post made me sad! I know exactly how you feel.. me and my fiance used to have to go though it all the time! Only for us I was here in London and he was in Paris. It was so hard knowing we weren't in the same country! People used to tell me the same thing.. why do you bother! YES its hard but worth it in the end. Now years later.. we'r engaged both living in London and ready to start life! Its hard in the moment.. but will all be worth it.. keep ur head up hun :) im sure it wont be long before you are reunited.. :) xxx

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  12. aww i know exactly what you mean, my boyfriend and i sometimes dont see each other for up to 5 months at a time, he stays with me whenever he can but when he leaves it really is the worst feeling in the world.. the last time especially. its horrible waking up without them there. but its definitely worth it:) but yes urgh i hate when people automatically judge long distance relationships and can't see a point to them, they would if they had ever felt as strongly about another person.

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  13. @zara - aww that must have been so difficult! it's stories like that that make me feel grateful that my boy isn't even further away. thank you lovely :)

    @kara - absolutely! i hope you get to see each other again really soon! stay strong :)

    xoxo

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  14. I will pass on some very important advice from Diane Von Furstenberg - 'Absense to love is what wind is to fire. When it's a small fire, the wind kills it. When it's a real fire, it intesifies it.'

    DVF is very wise, we shouldn't argue with her...hope you're ok lovely xxx

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  15. Good things come those who wait, & I truly hope you and your boyfriend will have your happy ending, because you deserve it so much.

    I think the whole long distance thing is very difficult from how you describe it, but if anything it will make you stronger. I really admire you, and what you said about wanting to remain independent.

    Your boyfriend sounds a wonderful person and I think you two really are meant for one another.
    Time is only a matter of days/weeks/months/years. One day you will have your happy ending. xx

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  16. @nic - That's a lovely quote! Thank you :)
    @alice - Thank you lovely! :)

    xoxo

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  17. I was in a long distance relationship quite recently, and although now we've broken up and gone our separate ways and I'll say he wasn't worth it in public, I know that it really was worth all the travelling and the late nights when you're the only one on the motorway and the long, difficult goodbyes for the time you get to spend together, even if it's just a few hours. I just hope you get your happy ending together soon.

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  18. @laura - i'm so sorry it didn't work out for you!

    xoxo

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  19. Ah, I'm so sorry to hear of your heartbreak. I can only imagine the pain of a long distance relationship. Your positive attitude and undying love will see you through though - just be strong for now and dream of that cottage. :) xxx

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  20. this makes me remember when my bf was in florida and i missed him like mad- but you can do it!!

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