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Tuesday, 4 January 2011

Inspiration, Memories and Being Happy.

Photography isn’t something I’ve always loved, in fact it wasn’t never even something I considered until I was 16. I had no idea what I wanted to do at College so I simply picked some courses out of the prospectus and over those two years I discovered that photography was pretty much the only thing I’ve ever been good at. For four years photography overtook me, it became a huge part of who I was until one day last year I just, stopped.

It honestly hadn’t registered that the only photographs I’ve taken over the past twelve months have been of make up or my
outfits until I saw this video about Vivian Maier. The whole story touched upon in the video is just beautiful and seeing a few images of the many thousands of memories and moments she captured has really captivated me. It's also made me realise why I stopped taking pictures, and it's because it had become something I had to do rather than something I wanted to do. I've never been more sure that leaving my photography degree was one of the best decisions I've ever made. Forcing something so creative like that doesn't work; it's the passion for the subject inside you that makes your ideas work in a 10x8 frame.

I’ve spent this morning looking through my first Flickr account and I’ve laughed & cried over some of the photographs, what I wrote about them and the comments I received. Back then I was too caught up in becoming popular on Flickr, which unsurprisingly never happened, and I too often overlooked the incredible feedback I was getting. It’s funny how much you change as you get older and I’m grateful that I get to appreciate those comments so much now, even if I am 4 years late. Never
go into things for the wrong reasons!

Film photography is my thing, it’s completely where my heart lies and there’s just something about it I find so utterly magical that I can’t fully explain. I have a collection of beautiful old film cameras sitting in a box and that’s not what they’re meant to do.
I can’t even imagine how many people have used them to capture their own memories in the past & I can’t imagine the places they might have travelled to. If only they could talk, I bet they’d have some stories. But now is the time for me to use them to capture my memories so I’m going to dig them out, stock up on film supplies and perhaps a few disposable cameras and just enjoy taking pictures again. This time around there’s going to be a difference though, I’m going to be Jennie who takes pictures, not Jennie the (wannabe) photographer

I don’t think photography will ever be my career; I have constant debates with myself if I would even want it to be, but I know that I want to be able to hold those memories that have yet to happen in my hand many years after they have happened. Does that make sense? Maybe in the future I’ll be that relative who sits people down at every opportunity and shows them lots of pictures organised in albums, or perhaps those albums will just be for me. Either way I want those memories. This is the first
day of the rest of my life and I don’t want to forget a single second of it.

If there's something you really love to do & it makes you happy, please don't give up on it. Always do the things that make you happy, life is far too short to spend it being unhappy.
xoxo

32 comments:

  1. I don't think you write a single post that doesn't make me want to be your friend, or give you a huge hug :)
    The pictures are beautiful!
    xx

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  2. I clicked 'like' but I actually loved this post.

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  3. This is really inspiring Jennie.
    I'm so happy to hear you're going back to something you love, sometimes when things are hard it's just these little things that get us through.
    I can't wait until I discover what my little escape is, and this post has given me a kick up the bum to figure it out, so thank you lovey :)
    Hope you're well,
    Heather-lou xxx

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  4. These are really great, I love pictures of the seaside. I especially like the one with the 2 seagulls - really gorgeous.
    x

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  5. This is a lovely post Jen. I've loved photography for quite some time now and as soon as I started to do it in college last year I just hated it. I didn't want to take photo's just for the sake and of things I didn't want to take photo's off which is what I had to do for the course, it just made me hate it. I too have a lovely film camera tucked away in my room which I really need to get out and start snapping away xx

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  6. I love this post! Your pictures are beautiful and your words are so true. I love photography, but it's a hobby for me, something I do as an escape and that's what hobbies should be after all.

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  7. This is a lovely post and your photos are brilliant, I love the focus in the photo of the man and the seagulls. ♥ Your post has made me realise I've got a lot of thinking to do about my own personal hobbies and career so thank you!

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  8. Thank you all so much

    xoxo

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  9. I agree with the first comment, you are such a wonderful person, I'd love to be friends in real life :) hehe. Your photography is lovely, I would love one of your big sea prints hanging on my wall.

    Even if you don't want to make it a career, you could always consider selling prints on the side? xx

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  10. I love photography, your blog has always been a place where I have felt envious of the truly beautiful photograps, honestly. I love all of your pieces and your such a nice person, which makes your blog a really nice place to come! xxx

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  11. Lovely post. You speak very wise words! Beautiful pictures :) xx

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  12. What a brilliant post!

    I feel exactly the same about writing; I've loved writing stories and poems since I was a little girl. When I was choosing my degree, I wasn't sure whether to keep writing as a hobby or to pursue it as a career.

    I'm now in the final year of my English degree and am due to graduate in a couple of months. I feel like I’ve learnt so much more, so many different techniques and sources of inspiration, but at the same time because it’s been compulsory, some of the fun has been sucked out of it. I'm now at a point where I'm searching for jobs and I'm trying to figure out whether to make a career out of it or to just go into a different field completely.

    I think it really depends on you as an individual. I mean my degree has been amazing but I think doing it as a career, it will become too serious and it won’t be for fun anymore. I think it just depends on how happy it makes you and how you personally feel about it. I do believe that if you’re amazing at something, you should share it with other people and maximise your potential because you owe it to yourself.

    Good luck with whatever you decide xxx

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  13. This is such an inspiring post Jennie! I bought a little analogue camera for my birthday (in August) and I haven't finished the first film yet due to a combination of fear of taking photos of people (I know, it's weird... I don't want to impose!) and not being used to non-digital but now I really want to get snapping so I have albums to look back on in my old age too!
    I second the other comments as well, I really wish I knew you 'in real life', you're so lovely and I always look forward to your posts!

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  14. I've seen the little clip about Meier yesterday, when you shared it on Twitter and loved it. I thoroughly love blogs that approach other subjects (besides beauty and fashion) too and love to find out more about the people who write them. I am super happy I have found your blog and I am loving every post of it and I really really like you :P
    Keep up the good work!

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  15. Brilliant Jennie! I can't wait to see some of your new photos if you decide to post them (hope you do) Glad you've decided to get back in to it :) xxx

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  16. I love your pictures! Seriously just keep taking them and putting them on your blog haha. And everything that you said made so much sense
    x

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  17. I love this post hun, so so gorgeous!
    Your photos are truly gorgeous & you're so very talented. Since my blog I have started to 'get into' photography more, and now with my new camera I hope to widen my love for it more & more. You have a great talent beyond a lot of people tough- so make sure you don't forget that. I could look through photo albums all day- mainly they are of me & the girls out in town, holidays, or random outings, and the quality is never on the good side. However I will keep printing them, keep all my albums, and I personally do go through my albums- they are mine & almost something I'm proud of. Like- I did that, I wore that, I saw that!
    & I could gaze through weheart it or flickr over and over, and just see different things that make me smile each time.
    My dream would be to do wedding photography, I love weddings so very much & if I ever got any good at this, then it's somthing I'd like to showcase in that way. If you're happy taking photos, carry on doing- it's not something you have to do for life! But it's something that you can use to make your life happier
    xxx

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  18. i recognise that beach...do you live in bournemouth?? you should definitely stick to photography! it's such a lovely way to express creativity. plus, we all get to be nosey and see what lovely thing you've been up to! that was a lovely post - i did photography at school too and really loved it but now i feel like i just don't have time for it but after reading this i might try and take a few more x

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  19. Your photographs are always beautiful jennie, I know I would definately love to see more from you :) I think we end up enjoying things more when we can just do them as we please, rather than being forced to do it or feeling under pressure to conform/live upto an expectation. xx

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  20. This post is so beautiful! I told you that you make beautiful photos! :)
    I love music. I went to a music school but I had to quit just because I got sick. Now I miss playing the piano or the guitar but most, I miss singing in a choir! That was a beautiful part of my life!
    I'm a creative person but I want so much things to do and I don't know where to start. Have you ever felt that?

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  21. This is the first day of the rest of my life and I don’t want to forget a single second of it - exactly what I needed right now :)
    Love your photographs bb <3

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  22. i don't understand why you weren't popular on flickr.. these are stunning! <3

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  23. These photos are so stunning, love seeing them on your blog! xx

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  24. You have beautiful photos! I love this post because I can definitely relate, when I was little I used to love playing the piano, then it became all about passing exams to get to a certain certified level - and I started to hate it!

    Some things are better left as things you do for fun and not with a professional goal in mind.

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  25. Amazing post and your photographs are stunning. Can't wait to see more. xx

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  26. This is such a lovely post, and full of beautiful photographs too. I'm a fan of your work. xoxo

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  27. I was never the kind of girl who really KNEW what she would do with her life... what her passion is. I love writing, so I knew I had to stay away from any degree with writing in it because it will become a task for me and not something I really need to do... So I understand you. Either way, you take beautiful pictures and I hope you find your calling (:

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  28. Great post and these photos are insanely beautiful! :O

    I'm your new follower!

    x Christine
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  30. This is such an inspiring blog!
    I love baking and cooking and I've just taken a food course at school, but couldn't work out why I haven't been enjoying it.
    I know cooking and photography are very different but really it's a hobby.. Should be and always will be now, so even though I don't exactly know which career I'm headed for yet, I'm going to scrap the idea of cooking.
    Thank you for this! xx

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