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Sunday, 1 January 2012

01.01.2012 - A New Year, Sailboat Turns Two & Thank You From The Bottom Of My Heart.

 Wow, well, hello 2012. I’m not quite sure where 2011 went, I seem to have blinked and it disappeared. Today marks the beginning of a new year and today Sailboat turns two years old. This little piece of the internet has turned into so much more than I ever could have hoped for or even dreamed of. Each and every one of you who reads, comments & sends me sweet emails have contributed to making me infinitely more confident in my own skin and that’s something that I can never ever say enough thank you’s for.
When I first started writing here two years ago I was pretty much at rock bottom. I had just dropped out of University, I felt like a complete failure and I felt like I had no prospects at all. But that was the point that I decided that I wasn’t going to wallow and I wasn’t going to just sit on my bum all day every day doing absolutely nothing. That wasn’t the life for me.

2011 was a year of ups and downs, like I’m sure many of your years were. The start of a new year always brings so much hope and that’s something amazing that should be cherished but it’s important not to forget that your life is what you make of it. There are always opportunities there for the taking, sometimes seeing those opportunities is difficult and unfortunately they don’t always make themselves noticed. If you’re anything like me you need things to pretty much come and smack you in the face before you begin to see them and truly appreciate them. That’s something I need to work on! Sometimes you have to actively track opportunities down. If there’s something you want to do, you have to believe that there is a way that you can make it happen. And there will be. Where there's a will, there's a way.
I said goodbye to my childhood home on my twenty-second birthday last May and although I had so much to look forward to I can’t lie and say it was an easy situation. Without getting too personal that was also the day that someone left my life forever. Myself and that person didn’t have a good relationship, we hadn’t for a really long time, but the choice to cut all ties and stop making contact altogether wasn’t my choice but I’ve accepted it now, that’s just the way it’s going to be. It kind of hurts, I can’t lie, but it’s made me a stronger person. It’s those difficult situations that help make us who we are and although something may suck at the time, I believe that things always happen for a reason and the only thing that often helps things begin to make sense is time.
I know I used this same photograph in last years post, I'm making it my mission to take more photographs with my boy in 2012!
Although I lost someone, I also gained someone. Even though he’s been in my life for four years now, he had always been far away until last May. 300 miles to 30 seconds down the street was a big change for my boyfriend and I, which is why I made the decision not to move in with him straight away. I'll never forget the first time he picked me up from my new house and counting the amount of seconds it took for us to reach his house while holding hands tightly. Not living together straight away was 100% the right decision to make and we now have a stronger relationship for it. 2012 will see me move house again, but luckily it’s only a couple of houses down the street this time, which will be much easier! Although, I am going to have to learn to live with a boy and he snores sometimes, but shhh, don't tell him I told you that!
Ralphie has been such a sweet constant in my life this year. He has well and truly hit the toddler stage and has become infinitely more cheeky and he pretty much chooses to ignore what I’m saying if I tell him to stop doing something. I wouldn’t have him any other way though, my life would be missing something if he weren’t here. Even though he's just pulled a pile of clean laundry on to the floor and started digging in it, I can't imagine my days without him in them anymore.
In 2012 I’m hopeful that I will be able to leave my current job and either be able to entirely support myself through freelance work and my little jewellery business or at least find a little part time job that I actually enjoy. I have some lovely plans for Sailboat, Ahoy! which is my little shop and I really hope that I can make it into something really wonderful. Since receiving such a lovely new camera for Christmas hopefully I’ll be able to do something related to photography too, which will always be my first love. That’s the thing that I have no idea where to start with, but I’m going to make sure I give it a good try!

Like last year, I’m not going to make any specific resolutions, just give myself a couple of goals to aim for. I hope to continue to do well with my Open University degree; by next October I will be half way through and hopefully, fingers crossed, on the way to gaining a 2:1. Perhaps 2012 will be the year I actually do manage to start eating a little healthier, I’ve put on a few pounds in recent months that I’d quite like to say goodbye to but unfortunately I’m allergic to exercise. What? That’s not true? Oh okay, I’m just lazy. Must do something about that one! And who knows, maybe my boyfriend will become my fiance? Well, a girl can dream, right? 

I said this last year but I truly do mean it, I’m so grateful to be able to share life’s little ups and downs with each and every one of you. My aim is to blog more and most importantly, comment much more than I have been doing in recent months! I've noticed the number of comments I receive have been dropping off in recent months, I'm not sure whether it's because I've done something wrong or if it's because I haven't been as active online as I used to be? Either way, I'm hoping it's something I can fix because it's all the interaction that makes this extra special for me. This is the first post I've written in a very long time that feels like it reflects me completely. I think that's what Sailboat has been missing these past few months. I just needed time to adjust to my new life, everything is completely different and as a result parts of me are now much different than they were twelve months ago.

Thank you so much for being here for the last year, through the ups and the downs, and I hope that you’ll stick around so we can face 2012 together! It’ll be more special and all the more wonderful with you all here to share things with!

Wishing you all the best, take care & keep safe!

Lots of Love,
Jennie & Ralphie.
xoxo

58 comments:

  1. Love you Jen, happy blog birthday! Your blog was one of my faves in 2011 I'm sure it will stay that way this year! xxx

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  2. This post is adorable! Have a lovely new year :) x

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  3. Happy new year lovely, hope you have a blimming amazing one! Love to you and ralphie xxx

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  4. Oh what a lovely post - you sound as if you are doing so well, and learning so much - I sincerely hope my children grow up to be something like you!! (My eldest daughter is sixteen, so nearly there :) ) To be able to fly the nest and live an independent life is so hard, and what I want for my five. (Though tbh I hope they don't go JUST yet!!)

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  5. Oh what a lovely post - you sound as if you are doing so well, and learning so much - I sincerely hope my children grow up to be something like you!! (My eldest daughter is sixteen, so nearly there :) ) To be able to fly the nest and live an independent life is so hard, and what I want for my five. (Though tbh I hope they don't go JUST yet!!)

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  6. What a lovely post :)

    I really enjoy your blog hun, you've got something that really shows off all aspects of your personality, which is fallible like the rest of us!

    I hope you have a good year! I'll certainly be continuing to read :)

    xxx

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  7. What a lovely post! I love the pic of you and your boyfriend. Wishing you all the best for 2012 :) xx

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  8. Happy New Year Jennie! Wishing you all the best and hoping for tons of great blog posts and pics :)
    xx Mariella

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  9. What a lovely post!

    I'm so glad you, Ralphie and your boy are happy together! You're a lovely person and deserve a brilliant life!

    Even though it is hard to lose someone like that (I fully understand as i have cut all ties with a relative too) and it's hard, but you have some amazing people in your life that love you and focusing on that will make it a little easier!

    Happy New Year Jennie, i hope it brings all your dreams to you!

    xx

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  10. I'm so happy I've found your blog this year and it amazing how you can count on your readers :) Happy New Year xxxx

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  11. What a lovely post :) Glad to see you've had a good year, congratulations on all your success in 2011 and I'll happily continue reading this wonderful blog this year :)!

    Gabby x

    PS, I've just started up a new blog (gabby-treadsoftly.blogspot.com), would love it if you'd take a look around! It's a little sparse at the moment of course!

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  12. Amazing post Jennie! Seems like you have come so far, I hope things continue to look up for you xx

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  13. What a lovely post :) and I love Ralphie he is adorable! I have three myself and they are lovely pets xo


    http://tilly-jayne.blogspot.com

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  14. This is such a beautiful post,Jennie.
    I'll always remember that you gave my blog it's first "mention" when I was the new girl!
    May 2012 be truly wonderful for you, filled with love and happiness. :D xxxx

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  15. Wishing you all the best for 2012, I love reading your blog and am glad 2011 has tied up well for you :) xxxxx

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  16. I feel like we have had similar experiences. I also dropped out of college. I fell out with friends, it never got resolved, my then-bf was horrible to me, i couldn't find a way to be happy unless I quit. I believe that everything happens for a reason and wouldn't be doing what i'm doing now if it wasn't for that year I took out. This was 10 years ago now, i have *only* just started to recover and get over things this year!! (showing my age now! Also can't believe that it was 10 years ago since I was doing my A Levels!!?) Do you do freelance photography? Do you have a portfolio site? I think your photography is so impressive. I used to use viewbook for my fashion illustration portfolio. Well done for everything you have achieved. Wishing you the happiest 2012 xxx

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  17. I loved reading this post :-) I loved the pictures and the honesty! I also dropped out of Uni when I was 18 and felt rubbish after. However, like you, I picked myself up after deciding I didn't want to sit on my bum! I obtained my degree from another uni and am so pleased, in hindsight, that I made that decision! I am really looking forward to reading more of your blog this year xxxx

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  18. Happy New Year Jennie :) your blog has aaalways been one of my favourites, I've loved watching it (and you!) flourish and grow for the last 2 years. I'm just a terrible commenter, sorry! I do intend to make more of an effort with that this year though.
    Best of luck in everything that comes your way this year! x

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  19. Such a lovely post to read Jennie... I enjoy your blog so much and love reading your posts and seeing your photos... i almost feel inspired to start my own blog (after two years of reading them!) however i'm quite shy and still not sure if it's for me... putting myself out there online for all to see kinda makes me nervous but reading your blog i feel we are quite similar and you are inspiring me to perhaps start blogging myself. Wishing you a very happy new year... keep up the amazing, beautiful blog. X

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  20. Happy new year! All the best for 2012 xx

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  21. This was such a moving and honest blog post:)
    Congratulations on 2 years blogging and I hope 2012 holds everything you wish for :D

    I love reading your blog, I felt fairly isolated when I started to write my own.
    It's strange how writing can help you gain some perspective and let you focus on the good things :)

    Have a Happy New Year.
    Much Love
    Lou
    xx

    Makeup for Biochemists

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  22. Beautiful post sweety! Both you & you're blog (& Ralphie of course!!) are super lovely & I truly enjoy reading your posts :) Wishing you all the best for the year to come!

    Love Aysh xoxo

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  23. It sounds like you've had a pretty amazing year! Of course every year has its ups and downs but I think you've come out of it really positively! Hope this year is good to you sweet, you deserve it :) xxx

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  24. happy new year! lovely post jennie, i hope you achieve everything your heart desires this year xx

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  25. That was such a beautiful post, and so well written. Wishing you the most amazing 2012.

    xoxo

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  26. Good luck with everything. You are such a lovely girl and deserve the world.
    Happy 2012 xxx

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  27. Just found your blog now, looking forward to reading more through 2012.

    Your photos are lovely btw.

    I'm following you now, hope you'll stop by my blog sometime to say hey and follow me back if you like it.

    Happy New Year!

    Amelia @ UGLY DUCKLING x

    I WAS AN UGLY DUCKLING BLOG!

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  28. Hapy new year, sweetie! Ralphie is adorable! x

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  29. This is a really lovely post :) I really enjoyed reading your blog in 2011 and I'm looking forward to your future posts!

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  30. @Gem - Oh thank you so much sweetheart. Yours will always be one of my absolute favourites, I'm so sorry I've been a fail at commenting on things lately, I'm going to be much better this year I promise!

    @Jenny - Thank you so much, I really hope you have a brilliant year!

    @Laura - Thank you my lovely! I hope the new year brings lots of happiness and good fortune your way!

    @too_busy_to_stitch - Aww gosh, what a lovely thing to say. I have every confidence that your wonderful children will achieve everything they want to and more. Hopefully my future children will do the same!

    @Rachel - Thank you so much lovely. Happy new year & I wish you every happiness!

    @thelandofbeautyblog - Thank you SO much!

    @Musing On Beauty - Thank you so much, wishing you a happy new year too! <3

    @Hannah - Thank you lovely! It definitely is difficult but like you said, looking around and really seeing how many other wonderful people we have in our lives makes things much easier. I hope this year brings you everything you hope for!

    @Marta - Thank you so much lovely! I really appreciate every comment you leave me!

    @Gabby - Thank you so much! I've followed your lovely blog too sweets! Thank you for linking me!

    @Monika - Thank you lovely!

    @Tilly-Jayne - Oh wow! I have no idea how you cope with three, Ralphie is more than enough work for me hehe!

    @The Pampered Sparrow - Aww thank you sweets! You're so welcome! I hope that this year holds lots of wonderful things for you!

    @Peacock Lace - Thank you! I'm wishing the same for you <3

    @Sarah - I definitely think the same, sometimes it's hard to see the bad things coming to an end, but they do. And it's those things that makes us stronger. You have achieved so much and even though I've never met you, I'm so extremely proud of you! Freelance photography is something I'm hoping to go into this year, I have no clue where to start other than perhaps selling prints/cards/postcards that kind of thing. I have a flickr page but I feel like the flickr community has died down a little in recent years so thank you SO much for linking to that site, it looks perfect! Wishing yo all the best for this year lovely!

    @Sparkly Flamingo - Thank you so much! I'm so happy for you and I hope that this year holds amazing things for you!

    @Leanne - Thank you so much for your kind words beautiful lady! Your blog always will be one of my favourites too and I'm totally the same, I've been a terribly commenter lately and I really do intend to get better at that. Wishing you lots of happiness for this year beautiful!

    @smileystacy1 - Aww thank you lovely! If you ever do start your own blog, be sure to email me the link because I'd love to read it!

    @Laura - Thank you beautiful, same to you. I hope 2012 is amazing!

    @Lucy - Thank you so much lovely. Blogging really is wonderful, I'm so happy I discovered it! Happy new year, I hope it's an amazing one for you!

    @Aysh - Thank you beautiful, I'm wishing the same for you!

    @Anna - Thank you so much lovely! :)

    @Caroline - Thank you so much lovely, I hope the same for you! Hopefully 2012 will hold lots of wonderful things!

    @Dreams That Glitter - Thank you so much my lovely. I hope 2012 is so wonderful for you!

    @Wishbone - Thank you so much! <3

    @Ugly Duckling - Thank you lovely! Happy new year <3

    @Halima - Happy new year lovely! <3

    @Whimsical Wolf - Thank you so much. Same to you!!

    xoxo

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  31. Aww a lovely post!!! I always love your posts, all the best in 2012 sweetheart xxxxxx

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  32. @musicndaydreams - Thank you so much, lovely! xoxo

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  33. Happy birthday blog! I'm sure you'll have a great year (i hope!)

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  34. Happy New Year! And you've got a lovely blog.
    http://xtheperfectmess.blogspot.com

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  35. Happy new year! I love your blog and I love that you not only share lifes ups, but some of the downs too. I think some bloggers try to make there life picture perfect, but that isn't something easy to relate too! Good for you for doing what you love. You seem like such a genuine and beautiful person- inside and out! I hope this year brings you everything you want and more!!
    Xox

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  36. This is so lovely, and I absolutely adore you photography! x

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  37. Oh Jennie what a lovely post. You come across as such a kind person and I really hope 2012 is your year. You deserve every happiness!
    Sophie
    x

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  38. That has to be the nicest thing anyone has said to me regarding my blog, thank you for the support and for being generally lovely! :)
    I too look forward to reading your blog during 2012, it wouldn't be the same without sailboat being in my reading list! Here's to a happy new year and happy blogging. xx

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  39. @Rani - Thank youu!

    @Anita - Thank you so much! <3

    @Cassie - Happy new year lovely! Thank you so much, I hope this year is good to you too!

    @Deniz - Happy new year lovely!

    @Laura - Thank you so much! <3

    @Sophie - Aww thank you lovely! Happy new year!

    @T.Rose - You're very welcome lovely! Thank you so much. Happy new year <3

    xoxo

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  40. Happy New Year Jennie, hope 2012 is amazing for you!

    Gillian x
    elevatormusik.blogspot.com

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  41. Happy New Year, and Happy Blog Birthday. Your blog has always been one of my favourites to read, hope 2012 brings you lots of lovely things :) xx

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  42. That was beautifully written. I'm with you on taking as many oppotunities as possible. I believe if you outlook on life is more posistive it makes you more aware them so you naturally accept them. Whereas when you're filled with more negative emotions you think to yourself it's not getting any better so even if an oppotunity is given it will be ignored due to the fact of not thinking you're capable. I have so many ideas for projects and I'd love to work freelance, that would be my dream job! I'd love to quit my part time job too, the day I quit I'd feel so liberated I think. We'll get there some day! You've got it in you!

    Have a fantastic new year! x

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  43. fantastic blog!

    kisses,
    Klaudia B.

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  44. Happy New Year, and happy blog birthday! I love your blog, it's really become one of my faves since I found it. I'm a constant reader, but really don't comment enough. So here I am, commenting.
    Keep up the awesome blogging this year so I keep having something to read :-p
    Seriously though, I hope 2012 brings you everything you want.
    By the way, if I impulse buy a rabbit, it will be entirely your fault. I love Ralphie. I think he has his own little fanclub

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  45. @Gillian - Happy new year lovely!

    @Suzanne - Thank you so much! <3

    @Katie - Thank you! I totally agree. And we definitely will get there someday! Hopefully that day isn't far away!

    @Klaudia - Thank you!

    @CaramelLatteKiss - Thank you lovely, happy new year! That really means a lot! <3

    xoxo

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  46. Such a lovely post. Hope 2012 is good to you :) x

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  47. You're such a lovely girl and I have loved reading your blog this past year. Hope you, the bf & Ralphie have a fab new year. Living with a boy isn't too bad, you just have to get used to xbox's etc. haha xx

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  48. That is certainly a brilliant post. It inspires others that have had to leave college or uni etc. good words that will stand the test of time. Sell yourself/mind and words. They have an imence value. 😍😘😘💐

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  49. Love your words they inspire and promote nice feelings. Keep it up and luv your words

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  50. as im sure iv said in a previous post, i wish you nothing but the best.
    you seem a lovely person so very sincere and your blog is a joy to read.. plus your shop will make me penniless.lol
    so a very happy 2012 to you. :)
    c.x

    www.starsandthebutterflies.blogspot.com

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  51. @princesselfy - thank you! I hope it's good to you too!

    @Sarah - Thank you so much lovely! Haha thankfully the boy doesn't have an xbox, but I know he'd like one so I'm sure it's only a matter of time!!

    @amber wheeler - <3 Thank you!

    @fowler1958 - Thank you!

    @C. - Thank you so much. Happy new year lovely!

    xoxo

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  52. I love this post Jennie! it's so sincere! I'm actually allergic to working out too! It's a weird allergy, but it's there ;)

    Have a great evening and take care! //Niina

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  53. Congrats on your blog birthday Jennie! I love your blog and always enjoy reading it - I read it every morning with my cup of coffee! You seem like such a lovely person and you always write from the heart which I am completely in awe by - It's really refreshing to see someone who is so sincere.

    I would love if one day you'd look at my blog and send me some feedback as I really just love your blog!


    The Urban Umbrella
    xoxo

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  54. What a lovely post :) I tend to be more of a reader than a commenter, thinking I should up the effort this year!!

    I am glad that 2011 had such nice ups for you after what must have been a very tough situation. Your blog is fab and I think it will go places! :D

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  55. A gorgeous post...I started reading your blog about 6 months ago and it is group under Favourites. Thank you so much for such pleasurable reading. My New Year's resolution was to start a blog - www.agirlsimagination.com any advice or tips would be very much appreciated (it's literally 2 days old!)

    But for now, congratulations on such a success! All the best for 2012.

    L x

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