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Saturday, 3 November 2012

A Heart to Heart.

It's 2am as I type this, please forgive any silly grammatical mistakes, I'm not going to read through and edit this because I'll over think things, end up taking bits out and then it won't be quite so authentic. I'm only human, and, actually I guess that's where this post stems from. I feel like I haven't written a post like this for a really long time and I've missed it. You know, just sitting here with the compose new blog post page in front of me on the screen, and really talked to you. A lot has changed over the past three years, since I very first clicked that create new blog button. Blogging has changed and I've changed. We all do. It's such a natural part of life and it's part of growing. Life is a funny thing. I've never been one to know where my path will take me and that's something I like. I have a few ideas floating around in my head and I'm excited to finally be brave enough to take the leap and just go for it. Sure, some things might not work out, but I'll never know if I don't try. Anyway, that's a topic for a whole other post entirely.

This year is the first year I found myself losing my way a little, both in some aspects of my life and with this little piece of the Internet. There are so many blogs out there now, which is such a wonderful thing don't get me wrong. I just, well, I suppose I began to feel like I wasn't relevant anymore. I felt a bit surplus to requirement. I wasn't needed. Not that I was ever 'needed' before, but I hope you know what I mean. I nearly erased everything one evening, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. This is such a huge part of my life. You are such a huge part of my life. How could I just erase that? I couldn't, I can't and I don't think I'll ever be able to. I can imagine myself, an old lady sitting in a rocking chair, still writing, right here. I have no idea what I'll be writing about. My hip replacement? The best denture adhesive? The grandchildren? Who knows, but hopefully blogger will have improved a little by then! No more glitches please! ;)

Some people are destined to be super popular, I'm sure of that. And I think a part of me will always be so envious of those people. You know, the super gorgeous ones, the beyond clever ones, the beautifully talented crafty ones. Jealousy is the one part of my personality I would change if I could. It's such an ugly trait and I bury it as deep inside as I possibly can most of the time. Those times it does appear and makes me a little sad inside I try and turn it into something positive. There will always be someone in the world that's better at something than I am. Always. The only thing I need to do in my life is be the best person that I can possibly be. And that thought has pulled me out of a pretty big hole and given me something totally new to strive for.

So I began thinking about why I started blogging in the first place and that was to connect with people with similar interests. I love beauty and fashion and photography and so many other things that you, reading this, love too. I want to talk to you. I want to know what you love and why you love it. The Internet gives us the opportunity to 'meet' people who otherwise we would never have known and the positivity that comes from that is just amazing.

At the time I started writing here 'freebies' for lack of a better word (apologies, it's super late!) were fairly non-existent and now they're here, there and everywhere. I don't think that's a horrible thing at all. I love reading reviews and thoughts on products and on brands. I just want them to be honest. Always. I am so so lucky and thankful and grateful that I occasionally am in the position to be offered products for review consideration. It's something I never expected in a million years, it's something that I don't see as an entitlement, it's something that I am very fortunate to get. And I'm also very aware that it's something that wouldn't happen without you. I feel like I owe you so much, you've not only given me some amazing opportunities, you've made my life and my confidence feel so much more, well, complete.

I've never been the pretty one, or the talented one or the clever one. I've experienced those lows and had my confidence knocked. I've never been popular. I've never had a lot of close friends. I'm very much an introvert, I like my own company and sometimes that's a bit of a lonely place to be. But I never feel lonely anymore. There was a period of time where I felt completely unable to look anyone in the eye. And even though there will always be someone better at something, you've made me feel happy and content and I feel that we get to experience the highs together. I never want anyone to feel alone, you're never alone, I promise. Things always get better.

I can't quite comprehend that over two and a half thousand people have clicked that subscribe button. It's totally crazy. There are people who have tens of thousands of subscribers and honestly, that little pang of jealousy does still creep in sometimes in that respect, but I just take a second to remind myself that I don't need to compare myself to anyone else. All I need to do is be the best possible version of myself. And that's more than enough.

I feel like I'm getting back on track. That passion for writing has come back and I'm spending every spare second I have writing, reading, commenting and simply loving everything blogging related. I want you to know that I'm so thankful to have you in my life. Even though we've never properly met. I'm grateful for every opportunity, every comment, every tweet and every email that comes from you. I want to get back to writing posts like these sometimes, like I used to, back at the beginning. I want you to always see those good things you saw in me and in this little piece of the Internet when you first started reading. I want to be friends and I want to share things with you.

Ultimately I want to be relateable. Always. I make mistakes. I'm not perfect. I'm human. Just like you. All I can give you is my honesty, my thoughts, my opinions and my love. If I mention something, it's because I love it and want to share it with you. If I don't absolutely love it, I'll tell you and I'll tell you why because you might end up loving it because we're all different. You mean more to me that you could ever imagine & please don't ever forget that.

Thank you, so much!
With love,
Jennie May
xoxo

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  1. What a lovely post Jennie. I often think that things written down late at night are often our truest thoughts. I understood exactly what you meant, and just thought I would let you know that your blog has been an inspiration to learn from and follow, so thank you :) xxx

    LittleGlitter.org

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  2. Jennie you're wonderful! Sailboat was once of the first blogs I ever followed because on first glance I loved your photographs and the posts you were writing, and then I learned that you have a lovely little Ralphie in your life and he sold it to me! :-)

    You seem so down to earth and I've taken a lot from this post, I know exactly how it feels to be envious of people and I certainly like my own company, but I agree entirely with you that the internet can make you feel like part of a big community and I am grateful for that!

    I like reading posts like this, it reminds me that we're all just lovely individual people behind the web pages and that's just who we should stay :-)

    Louise xx

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    1. Aww thank you so, so much! You're right, everyone is an individual and we should always be true to that individuality even though sometimes it can be difficult! <3

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  3. What a fab post!! I think that everyone gets those feelings - me included - but I'm hoping that blogging will make be a better person!
    And kudos for you for having such a fab blog!!!
    XO

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  4. Jennie this is such a beautifully eloquent post, I can identify with so much of what you have expressed here - introvert tendencies, occasional attacks of the green eyed monster, feeling like I couldn't matter less in the grand scheme of things. I come to your blog because it feels a friendly place to spend a few minutes, I adore your photography and your reviews make the girly side of things easier for this not particularly girly girl :-) You have a really honest way about you and I think that is worth so much!

    Jem xXx

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    1. Thank you so much lovely, I'm glad we've 'met' through the bloggersphere <3

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  5. I think a lot of people feel unsure of themselves at times. Your blog has always been one of my favourites as I'm sure it is for many. Just keep being yourself lovely xx

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    1. I totally agree! Aww thank you so much lovely, I will do! <3

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  6. This is a beautiful post! I know what you mean about enjoying your own company, I'm an introvert too but sometimes it does get a bit lonely :( I think you are really good at photography and you are very pretty! So you shouldn't doubt yourself at all xxx

    P.s : If you keep writing your blog until you are an old lady, I will keep reading it :P

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  7. Thankyou for being so open and honest. This is what makes you and your blog so special for all your subscribers :)

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  8. thank you, posts like that remind you whats important xxx
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  9. Beautiful :) We all have times when we feel irrelevant, it's human! It's how you deal with that feeling that can push you forward :)

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  10. I never comment on blog posts anymore in case people take a look at my failed blogging attempts but I couldn't leave this page without saying how much I admire you and the work that you put into your blog. It's quite a breath of fresh air to find a blogger who is so honest and appears so humble in spite of all the followers (which you definitely deserve!)

    Basically, I think you're fab and will definitely head over to your blog when I'm reseaching dentures and hip replacements :P Have faith in yourself gorgeous girl, we're all behind you :)

    Sophie x

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    1. Aww, thank you so much Sophie, I really appreciate you taking the time to leave a comment and it really puts a smile on my face! <3

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  11. I only recently discovered your blog, but I absolutely love it! You shouldn't think a thing of other people, as long as your sole motivation is doing things YOU love and enjoy, you'll always be in the right space. And I think you know that, just wanted to affirm it as an internet stranger. ;) I'm looking forward to continuing to read your blog! xo Kassia

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    1. Thank you, you're totally right! Thank you for reading, it really does mean the world! <3

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  12. This was lovely to read! Never give up on something you love this much, I may say this on behalf of many other readers of yours but your blog is undoubtedly special, different. Jealousy may impact all of us in a negative way, and this may sound so cliche but everyone is different, everyone is beautiful in their own way. Your blog is beautiful, and the words are genuine and so evidently honest.

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  13. hey, i've recently starting blogging and have included your blog in my post 'my five favourite blogs' could you please have a look at my blog :)
    http://manyconfessionsofashopaholic.blogspot.co.uk/

    Robyn x

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  14. Such a lovely post, Jennie. Your blog is one of my favourites- I do read ones with 10s of thousands of followers from time-to-time but they don't have the same 'human' dimension to them... it can feel a little mechanical sometimes.

    I get down about my blog- after almost four years I only have 81 followers, but then my blog is pretty random. In fact, I'm going through a bit of a down-spell and am feeling really bummed out about myself. I want to blog about it but people high up at my work read my blog and I can't risk them judging my depression- which is soooo wrong, but the way it goes, I guess.

    I've been considering deleting every social networking/ blogging account I have, but actually it's the 'strangers' - the people I've never met but I feel a connection with - on the internet that are stopping me because I'd actually miss them if I were to delete everything. I kinda wish I could just delete all of the real life people and just have my internet friends on my social networks!

    I'll shut up now, but yeah. I think you're awesome xx

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    1. I really hope that you start feeling a little better soon, you are such a lovely person and I'd hate to see you leave the blogging world! I'd miss you! I know I don't always comment but I always read your posts and I adore them <3

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  15. Oh Jennie! I totally understand how you feel, but I think you're being too hard on yourself! I've lost count of the number of blogs I've seen where your name appears under their favourite blogs or their bedtime reads or whatever. Your blog is brilliant because its personal and its relatable and the photographs are beautiful. I always know that if I click on your link the post is going to make me smile or think and that it will all be 100% your opinion.

    I hope you know that you don't have to be the pretty 'one', the talented 'one' or the clever 'one' to be pretty and talented and clever, and I'd far rather read the blog of someone who is all those things and also genuine and friendly-which you are.

    You've inspired a lot of people whilst you've been blogging and I know you'll continue doing it.

    love and hugs hun, xoxox

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  16. Oh Jennie what a beautiful and heartfelt post! I have only recently started blogging and I only have 6 followers but we all start somewhere right? Your blog was one of a small few which started me blogging in the first place! I started out reading beauty blogs and now have branched out more into lifestyle ones. I don't tend to follow too many of the really big/popular blogs, I'd like to think my blog reading is more picky than just following the crowd if that makes sense! I love reading your blogs and I really hope you keep it up! Take care sweetie x Oh and don't ever think you aren't beautiful/talented/clever - YOU ARE!

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    1. Aww thank you so much, it's lovely to hear that I played a part in inspiring you to start your own blog! <3 xo

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  17. This was such a lovely post, your blog is without a doubt one of my favourites you're always so open and honest in what you write and it's clear to see how much you love it. I'm glad you're back on track! I hope in years to come I'm a little old lady sat in my rocking chair still reading your blog xxx

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  18. Aw we all get these feelings - recently I went through a deleted a lot of posts because they were not beauty or fashion related. I get tht jealousy too I guess with followers an such - but don't worry I only have 37 followers think of that!! your blog is great I really enjoy reading it :-) xoxo

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  19. Jennie I can relate so much to this. I am exactly the way you described yourself at it's wonderful how much more complete the blogging community can make you feel in that sense, and give you confidence. Your blog is absolutely lovely and you've created a wonderful little community here :). xx

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    1. Thank you so much Sarah. That means a lot, I always wanted this to be a happy place to spend a few minutes! <3

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  20. Jealousy comes with blogging doesn't it, I feel like the two of them go hand in hand and I'm back at school again.. except I really like this school so there's a difference ;)
    I look at my blog and then someone else's who's had theirs a lot less time than mine and they have thousands of followers and I've got 200?! I feel so uncool and unpopular and just... why does nobody like me?! which actually represents my life so hey, but I keep on blogging cause I started a blog because I loved reading blogs and I wanted to have my own 'moment' out there, not just sitting reading about everyone elses!
    So I'll carry on and have my doubts and love it all the same, it's a disease really isn't it! :)
    I love your blog jennie & I really can't wait to see what you have planned! :):) xo

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    1. I think they definitely do! Please keep carrying on, you're so absolutely lovely and I know there are people that must adore you! <3

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  21. A beautifully written post and I can find elements of me in what you have written. It's lovely and refreshing to hear someone being honest and speaking from the heart x x

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  22. This is such a beautiful and relatable post! I've followed your blog for such a long time and you're one of the most down-to-earth people in the blogging world. You're definitely not irrelevant in the world of blogging and I'm glad you're not going anywhere (nearly had a heart attack!).

    Hope you're well hun! <3 xxx

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    1. Thank you so much, that's so lovely and wonderful to hear! I'm definitely not going anywhere <3

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  23. Aww Jennie, this was so lovely, thank you for sharing.

    Xoxo

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  24. It was really lovely to read such an honest and open post - I can really, really, relate to a lot of what you're saying. Keep doing what you're doing though, it's fabulous. x

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  25. Jennie I love your blog, it was one of the first I subscibed too because I just loved your style of writing, so even if you do end up still writing this blog as an old lady, I will still be reading!! I know how you feel, I ended up deleting my old blog because I didn't feel it was going anywhere, like I was stuck, so I started again and I am so glad I did, I now write about what I want to write about, not what I expect other people will want to read. I love blogging, I love being part of the blogging community and commenting on other peoples blogs and meeting new people, I love it whenever I get a comment, a tweet or an email, because then I know that people do read my blog, and it is quality not quantity. I am so grateful that you have done this post because it has just expressed everything that I have been willing to say for a while.
    I love your blog Jennie, so keep it up!:)xoxo

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    1. Thank you so much for such kind words! The blogging community really is such a wonderful place to be, I'm glad you came back! <3

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  26. I get jealous too of the more 'popular' bloggers. But you are absolutely right when you say that blogging is what you love to do, and you cant compare yourself to anyone else, so why stop. I wouldn't stop blogging just because someone is getting more views!

    Also, you were the first blog I started following. I typed in beauty blog in google one day while bored and no joke, yours popped up and I was hooked. I spent the next week catching up on all the older posts I missed in my free time and got inspired to try my hand at blogging. So thank you for putting yourself out there (from everyone who enjoys reading your words!) :)

    xo

    marissa florence
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  27. This is a lovely post! I love your blog, it's one I always make sure to check if there's been a new post whenever I read blogs.I love your reviews and your style of writing (so down to earth) and your photos are so beautiful!
    Daniella x

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  28. Jennie, this is precisely why you have so many people who love and read your blog - your personality always shines through and you come across as being such a lovely person in your posts, which many of the 'super populars' do not xx

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    1. Thank you so much Jenny, I'm so happy that you think that, it means so much! <3

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  29. A beautiful post Jennie. I love reading your blog because you offer something different from the norm, so I'm so so glad that you didn't delete it all. I really would miss you x

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  30. You speak from the heart. I sometimes fall out of love with blogging but there's always a way to fall back in love with it. Thank you for sharing.

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    1. Thank you Molly. Blogging somehow has a way of drawing you back in every time, it's part of why I adore it so much! xo

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  31. Aw this was an amazing post, Jennie. I absolutely understand what you are going through, because I know I've had periods similar to it. But just know that THAT many people clicked the follow button because you're something special.

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  32. you are really massive inspiration. thank you for sharing all these awesome thoughts <3
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  33. You're so cute <3 keep writing! I'd miss you if you deleted your blog :( x

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  34. I absolutely adore this post, it is brave and beautiful. There is something about blogging that can make you feel connected to people but on the other hand it can make you feel very alone. I think remembering the passion that made you first want to start a blog is important, to remind yourself why you are doing it in the first place. I don't think non-bloggers realize how much time and effort goes in to blogging. Hang in there baby :) x

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    1. Absolutely, it's always important to remember why you started doing something and how you grew to love it. Aww thank you lovely <3

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  35. Could you be any more lovely? You scared be there at the beginning, I thought we were gonna get some bad news! I really loved reading this post, I can really relate to some of the thing you wrote. I understand that feeling of envy of all the big bloggers and also the pleasure we get when somebody likes our log. If I'm being honest with you (this is very embarrassing), the reason why I started a blog was to make friends. Pathetic. haha I moved to England in April and can't work while waiting for my spousal visa so I mostly just stay home and I don't really know anyone. So there's that, you're sharing, I shared. haha Please don't stop writing on your blog, I really enjoy reading it and I'm really happy to hear you got your writing mojo back! ;) haha xx

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    1. Aww no, no bad news! That's not pathetic at all, I think it's lovely & a wonderful way to make new friends! <3

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  36. I honestly love your blog. Posts like this and the things you consider "mistakes" are what make you relateable. I agree with how overwhelming it is that there are so many blogs. How does one stand out and feel special? Well the answer is right here. Look at all the heartfelt comments you've gotten. And the brightside is that there are so many bloggers which means so many opportunities to meet people and so many that could read what you write and connect with you.
    Sorry if the comment is messy, I'm writing it on my phone.

    And I very much disagree with your statement of not being the pretty one. You're beautiful!

    Lots of love,
    Coco

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  37. If there is one thing that i learn it is that you don't have to try to be the best, but try to be the best of yourself, il faut se dépasser soi-même, être le meilleur de soi et ne pas se comparer aux autres, c'est ce qui fait notre malheur.

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  38. awww Love you Jennie, one of my faves to read and watch x

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  39. Awe Jennie, you're such a sweetheart. I love your blog and have been an avid reader of it for over a year. You are incredibly relatable, thats why I love reading your blog - I feel like you really "show" yourself, it's not sugar coated or fake, you are true to who you are and thats wonderful. I really think you should feel confident in yourself and your blog - you're stunning, incredibly intelligent, a fantastic writer and your blog is simply wonderful (and completely addictive). I know what you mean, there are tons of blogs out there and reviews can get repeatitive but if you stay true to yourself then you'll never really fade into the background. I always worry about that too though.

    xoxo Bree
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  40. Such a heartfelt post! Stay true to who you are and what you want to write down here, that's why people come back in the first place. Don't delete your blog after all the work you've put into it.. It's a beauty :)

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  41. Jennie, this is an absolutely beautiful, heart-warming, honest piece. You've got an incredible blog and you should be so proud of everything you've achieved! Your a beautiful, talented, young lady!! I really empathise with your post though, i also have an incredibly jealous side to me and i always find myself feeling crap and inadequate but you are the best you can be and thats all that matters at the end of the day. I love your blog Jennie, and you are such an inspiration - you really are! xx

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  42. You're such a lovely person Jennie!!! Simple words like 'You're never alone' truly help me at the moment. I know you're aware of my situation as I know you read my weekly post on a Sunday as you comment practically every week. Your kind words always put a smile on my face. Knowing that there are people out there who have even an inkling of an idea of where I am at the moment helps so much, because it can be a dark lonely place sometimes.

    Carry on being the wonderful person that you are! xxx

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  43. This is such a lovely post :) I've always loved your blog, you don't try to be fake or be something or not, you seem like such a lovely person! xx

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  44. As a reader of many beauty blogs/blogs in general, I'm always in awe of how well the blogger writes! Like you, you seem to connect to your readers when you're reviewing products, or just writing about your thoughts and stuff. As for my writing style... I'm still discovering it because I just started in this blogging "business"

    This post definitely made me think about my blog. I started my blog because I really do like beauty-related products and fashion, and I do enjoy talking about my thoughts on them and such. But there are also an infinite number of blogs just like mine, so who has the time to come by and read mine? I usually get a lot of passer-bys who asks for follow backs, but are they really reading and enjoying my posts?

    Right now I'm stuck in a rut, so I hope I can think positive like you and continue on with my blog! :D

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    1. Thank you so much, Annie! I do really try to connect with as many people as possible in a relateable way. Definitely continue with your blog, it's lovely! <3

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  45. wow this cudnt be more genuine and cosy, really enjoyed reading it, i find myself feeling and thinking some of the exact same things you mentioned, i think everyone does from time to time in life! you are totally relatable xx

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  46. Jennie, your blog is one of my all time favourites, you won't know this but i have followed your blog from the beginning, do you remember when you used to post on 'The Student Room' forum? Thats when i started following your blog, i think you started a photography blog first, if i'm not mistaken? Then when you started 'Sailor Jennie' i knew it was going to be one of my favourites blogs.

    Everything you write, you can tell you are passionate about - be it little Ralphie, your favourite products or emotional posts like this one. I feel like i already 'know' you (does that sound weird?!) and you and your blog are so amazing, don't change for anyone. <3 xx

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  47. Jennie I can probably write an entire essay in response to this wonderful, honest post of yours because I GET you. I understand where you're coming from. Like you, I have my moments of weakness. When I let my jealousy take over me. It isn't a nice feeling, it grabs me by the throat, suffocating me while all I can do is cry out in whisper.Desperate for a way out. Some situations are easier to overcome while others take nearly a week to shrug it all off. I've always been a people pleaser. Always have and will probably remain that way for the rest of my life. I get jealous of people who are given more attention, who are more successful than me because in my mind I'm doing everything I could possibly do to make people like me aswell. I know we shouldn't live our lives like that, that we can't ever please everyone but that sadly will never stop me trying to please everyone I meet. This post just struck a chord and I thank you Jennie for opening up once again to your loyal readers. I've been reading your blog for as long as I can remember and will always remain by your side bec there's just something about Sailboat that keeps me coming back for more and that's your genuineness. You're real.You're not fake. You tell it as it is. No sugar coating here just you keeping it real. And I love you for that.

    ''I've never been the pretty one, or the talented one or the clever one. I've experienced those lows and had my confidence knocked. I've never been popular. I've never had a lot of close friends. I'm very much an introvert, I like my own company and sometimes that's a bit of a lonely place to be.'' - This little paragraph just hit me hard. You've managed to capture how I'm feeling aswell about this topic. Jennie I sincerely hope that you continue to be positive and keep doing what you're doing bec that's the reason why I fell inlove with Sailboat hook,line and sinker :)

    All my love, Diane :)

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  48. That's how I feel everyday about my own blog, i'm just a normal somewhat boring girl that moved to the US who doesn't really know that much about america or have that many friends or know a lot about anything. I've been blogging for three years and people who have just been blogging a year have double the followers that I do. Makes me want to stop a lot of the time.

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  49. Your passion is inspiring! Don't let anyone get you down I read your blog daily! You are beautiful and talented just keep doing what your doing and we will continue to be in aure of you :) keep smiling :) <3

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    1. Thank you, I'll keep smiling for sure! xo

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  50. That was amazing thank you I love your blog also your beautiful I know sometimes it's hard to think of yourself in that way but try you'll feel better for it xxx

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  51. This is a lovely post Jennie. I have been blogging for a couple of years now, but my existing blog www.mummydaddyandmemakesthree.co.uk is a parenting blog for memories for my little girl. The parenting blogging community is competitive, and there are your extremely popular bloggers- but it is nothing like the lifestyle/beauty/fashion blogging community- the amount of subscribers and visitors some of you guys get is unreal. I feel pretty happy with where I am in the parenting blogging community.

    I have only been in it such a short time with my new blog, www.totallytates.com, but I have already noticed that it is taking a lot longer to start to get people commenting etc, I think it is because compared to some my blog just isn't as interesting or I am not as pretty or as fashionable. Still I hope someone, somewhere is enjoying what I am writing.

    Out of all the lifestyle blogs I have found, yours is just lovely, and one of the things that is the most lovely is that you take the time to comment back on my blog- something which you don't have to do but you do, even though I have only just started with that blog.

    This post is really inspiring and I think you definitely have a lovely little space here- just keep continuing to write what you enjoy and your readers will enjoy it too!
    x

    Katie- www.totallytates.com

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    1. Your blog is so wonderful, you should be very proud of it! Thank you so much lovely <3

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  52. I really hope this won't offend you but when I read what you write I feel like you are older version of me. We are so similar in many ways and makes me feel less alone. I was never pretty, clever or friend with special talent and it always made me insecure. Then I started blogging. I love it and enjoy it but then I find myself sitting here and thinking 'Well why do you write this when nobody cares about your blog. If your friends knew about it they would probably laugh.' I hate to be the one who is stopping myself. There was not one person who said anything bad about my blog, even though I don't get a lot of comments. I'm the one who is sabotaging everything I do just because I'll never be good as somebody else. Recenty it crossed my mind I don't have a talent for blogging, but that would be like saying I don't have talent at being myself. Then I'm eighteen and maybe I still don't know who I really am. Thank you for being such a wondeful inspiration and a person who lives so far away and I don't even know but still can relate to. xxx

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    1. Aww, no, I'm not offended at all! I'm so glad this makes you feel a little less alone <3

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  53. I've learned that not being popular is totally ok! I lOVE that you respond to your readers and I truly enjoy reading your posts! When I received a comment from you, it totally made my day! I'm quirky and have zero talent... I'm a stay-at-home mama with no Etsy store (it seems to be such a trend to have an Etsy store.) When bloggers become too popular, they don't really interact with their readers and I like your YouTube videos. Nothing forced or phony and I love that :)

    Don't delete your blog.

    Jennie May, you are fabulous!

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  54. such an inspiring post hun ! keep blogging and you deserve all your followers ! xxx
    thebeautyheroes.blogspot.co.uk

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  55. I have only 9 subscribers, including myself (I know, I know..) and when I saw the first one I was so happy I could crack up. I'm glad with my 9 subscribers. I'm only at the start of a new blog. maybe I'll be better and people will get to know my blog someday, but for now, it's enough.
    and keep on blogging, and do more posts like this one.

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  56. Sailboat was one of the first blogs I followed because I loved your photography and your writing style. You're still one of my absolute favourite bloggers. Sometimes blogging can feel like being a needle in a very large haystack, but trust me, yours is brilliant and your subscribers and comments reflect that. I always look forward to reading your posts and I certainly wouldn't have you any other way :)

    Jennie, you are an inspiration, please don't ever forget that <3 xx

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  57. What a lovely post Jennie. I am so glad you didn't delete your blog after all the time and hard work you have put into it. Even if one day you do decide to stop blogging, I don't think it's necessary to delete what is already here.
    For an introverted person I think you've been incredibly brave to put your life on the internet - I know it's something I've struggled with myself, as there is always the worry of being judged, and people taking things in the wrong way. Oddly, though, it seems to be more of a concern with people who already know me, and they are the ones who really should be the most supportive. But the support the blogging community provides is beyond anything I had ever imagined.
    Don't stop writing Jennie, there will always be people who want to read what you have to say :)
    Mel x

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