He was 'different'. Not to those who loved him, to us he was exactly the same as everyone else. But to others, who for reasons I can't even begin to understand, it was something to poke fun at, to laugh at, to mock, day in and day out for what felt like an eternity. As confident and outgoing as he was on the outside, on the inside he was frightened, his heart was broken and one day everything became too much. There's no blame anywhere, there's no anger, there's nothing. Just sadness. That smile is gone. The kindness he should have shared with so many more people is gone. His light is no longer shining here. It was turned off in the cruelest of ways and as each day passes & the days turn into years it feels a little less raw but it never really gets any easier. There's an extra star in the sky, one that shouldn't be there quite yet, but now shines brightly each night. Sweet dreams sweetheart.
*Please don't ever let anyone tell you it's not okay to be different. It's important to be yourself because in life all you really need to do is be the best possible version of yourself. Do what makes you happy. Smile everyday. Take every opportunity that comes your way. Make the most of every single day because we're not here forever. It's a short time so you have to make it a good time! There will always be people, who for whatever reason, don't like you & you don't like them. And that's okay too. By our very nature it's impossible to get on with everyone all of the time. Please don't single anyone out. Please don't laugh at anyone. We're all guilty of walking down the street and thinking 'ooh that person's hat looks terrible', but why not instead focus on something positive about that person? Maybe they're wearing a pretty dress or their lipstick really suits them. Positivity and kindness and love is something that isn't celebrated enough sometimes. If you're going through a hard time right now, please believe me when I say that it will get better. There's always someone, somewhere there to listen if you need it, please remember that.
Life is precious.
Make the most of it.
And be the best version of yourself that you can possibly be. Always.
i love you.