Monday, 18 February 2013
Taking a break from things, even from something you love to do, is sometimes very necessary and I think one of the easiest ways to find out if you do really love something is to stop and see how long it takes you to miss it. A few days in I was itching to sign in and empty my thoughts into a blog post, I love to blog, it has very much become a part of me and I wouldn't change that. The Internet can be a funny place sometimes. I think that sometimes people seem to forget their manners and become necessarily rude or overly critical without being constructive just because they're not face to face with the person they're talking to. But there are real people, with real feelings that read that comment at the other end and those feelings can be hurt. It's sometimes even more hurtful when those rude comments are about or directed towards someone close, who isn't a part of the whole bloggersphere and that's why I try and strike a good balance between being open and honest here but also protecting those that I love at the same time. I don't often feel the need to defend myself, but just to set the record straight. When I moved to be with my boyfriend, I didn't just up & leave my beautiful Mama behind in a place she wasn't happy, in fact she came along for the adventure and is now very happy in a beautiful home less than 30 seconds walk from where I'm sitting right now and I see her every single day.
I've been feeling a little sad recently. Not sad because something terrible has happened, just sad in a feeling lost sort of way. It's very easy on the Internet to read about someone's life and think 'wow, they're so lucky, I wish I could do that or live there or look like her' and although that's completely normal, I don't think it's something that should be thought about too often. I'm a firm believer that it's okay to take some time to feel a little bit sad, to wallow a little and to have a little cry, but I guess I just got too caught up in feeling blue that I forgot to remember the good things, you know? I watched the Perks of Being a Wallflower the other evening and as I was sobbing my way through it, something clicked and I knew it was time to change.
Yesterday I had a spring clean, I put up my new polka dot curtains and spent the afternoon really thinking about everything I would like to achieve in the near future and instead of then putting those thoughts to the back of my mind and carrying on as I was before, I started to plan. I now have lists, notes and inspiration absolutely everywhere and I'm excited to get started. Achieving dreams isn't easy, it takes time, perseverance and a few tears, but if you love it, it will all be worth it in the end.
Anyway, it's wonderful to be back. I'm excited to catch up on your posts and say hello again!