Monday, 18 February 2013

Lately.

It almost feels a little bit like I'm stepping into uncharted territory opening up the 'new blog post' page. I've had a little break from the Internet and I must say it has been wonderful to wake up and not immediately look at my to-do list, see what's happening on twitter or check my emails, which incidentally I am now extremely behind on, so if you're waiting for a reply, I'll get to it I promise!

Taking a break from things, even from something you love to do, is sometimes very necessary and I think one of the easiest ways to find out if you do really love something is to stop and see how long it takes you to miss it. A few days in I was itching to sign in and empty my thoughts into a blog post, I love to blog, it has very much become a part of me and I wouldn't change that. The Internet can be a funny place sometimes. I think that sometimes people seem to forget their manners and become necessarily rude or overly critical without being constructive just because they're not face to face with the person they're talking to. But there are real people, with real feelings that read that comment at the other end and those feelings can be hurt. It's sometimes even more hurtful when those rude comments are about or directed towards someone close, who isn't a part of the whole bloggersphere and that's why I try and strike a good balance between being open and honest here but also protecting those that I love at the same time. I don't often feel the need to defend myself, but just to set the record straight. When I moved to be with my boyfriend, I didn't just up & leave my beautiful Mama behind in a place she wasn't happy, in fact she came along for the adventure and is now very happy in a beautiful home less than 30 seconds walk from where I'm sitting right now and I see her every single day.

I've been feeling a little sad recently. Not sad because something terrible has happened, just sad in a feeling lost sort of way. It's very easy on the Internet to read about someone's life and think 'wow, they're so lucky, I wish I could do that or live there or look like her' and although that's completely normal, I don't think it's something that should be thought about too often. I'm a firm believer that it's okay to take some time to feel a little bit sad, to wallow a little and to have a little cry, but I guess I just got too caught up in feeling blue that I forgot to remember the good things, you know? I watched the Perks of Being a Wallflower the other evening and as I was sobbing my way through it, something clicked and I knew it was time to change.

Yesterday I had a spring clean, I put up my new polka dot curtains and spent the afternoon really thinking about everything I would like to achieve in the near future and instead of then putting those thoughts to the back of my mind and carrying on as I was before, I started to plan. I now have lists, notes and inspiration absolutely everywhere and I'm excited to get started. Achieving dreams isn't easy, it takes time, perseverance and a few tears, but if you love it, it will all be worth it in the end.

Anyway, it's wonderful to be back. I'm excited to catch up on your posts and say hello again!

xoxo

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  1. I'm in complete agreement with you, I've been feeling a little down lately, but sometimes all it takes is something little like new bedding or opening a savings account, to start to feel better. I love this post, and you have inspired me to maybe do something of a similar nature :) Thank you xx

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  2. I really enjoyed reading this post Jennie! Your honesty is so refreshing! Everyone has bad days, but it's how you pick yourself up from them and carry on that counts :) Hope the future brings lots of wonderful things for you xx

    Louise
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  3. What a beautiful post - I completely understand what you're saying. Sometimes I have moments where I wonder if my blog stacks up to others or that I'm not as exciting as other bloggers but then I think that thinking the grass is greener on the other side is part of life.

    I think having a little break is great sometimes as you can re-evaluate everything.

    Welcome back to blogging!

    Hannah www.cagneyandlace.com

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  4. Fabulous post. I often have mini breaks from the internet and social media because you can so wrapped up in the whole process, and it's nice to go back to basics and put it all to one side sometimes. Good luck with your goals - with the support of the ones who love you, I'm certain you'll get there :) xx

    LittleGlitter.org

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  5. I've missed your posts Jennie.
    Glad to hear you're feeling better xx

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  6. Sorry to hear you've been feeling that way Jennie - I have felt lost a lot over the past year and a half myself (since graduating I think) and I did the exact same thing and started planning and taking control of my life in the way that I wanted to. So I think you're getting through it in the right way. :) Just try and stay positive and on the worst days think of something or someone that you feel really lucky to have in your life and focus on that! (And I can't believe anyone could leave nasty comments to you! You're such a nice person! I've only just started blogging so haven't experienced anyone nasty yet, but I imagine it feels horrible to read these comments, so just remember that they are not the ones that matter and are not worth the time of day.) Take stay and stay positive :)

    Wendy (reader of your blog who can't think of anything but nice things to say about you!) xx

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    1. Aww thank you so much, your kind words mean the world <3

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  7. This was a lovely and inspirational post I truly agree with everything you have said and good for you for taking some time to set goals and think. Lovely post and good luck with your goals :)

    Kirstabelle xxx

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  8. you have my support all the way from Hong Kong! :)

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  9. I definitely think it's good to take a break from blogging now and then. Lately I've been reflecting on how much it's taken over my life and I've been trying to have breaks here and there to make sure I keep my priorities straight. It's easy to get sucked into feeling guilty when you don't reply to tweets or emails and I have enough demands in my full-time job that I don't want blogging to become another drain on my relationships and my time generally. I too have received the odd negative comment here and there and it upsets me that people take the time to be mean and want to say nasty things but I have to remember that it's just an unfortunate by-product of putting your life on the internet and having people read it. I feel like the warmth and friendship you receive from opening yourself up in this way greatly outweighs the negativity, so that's how I justify it to myself at least. Glad you're feeling inspired and renewed again, looking forward to reading new things, as always. <3 xo

    Rosie | A Rosie Outlook

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    1. It definitely is easy to get caught up in feeling like you need to do something! Thank you lovely! <3

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  10. Welcome back! Your post just made me think a little actually. I love it when bloggers let their personality shine on their blogs just like you do - it is so exciting and interesting to get a glimpse into someone else's life, but then who are we as readers to judge that person? I think it's completely out of order that you'd have to justify any of your life's decisions on here. I wish people would just learn that sometimes, if you have nothing nice to say, it's better to keep your mouth shut and your fingers away from the keyboard. That's just my two cents, anyway.

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    1. I completely agree. I'm not sure what goes through someone's mind when they're writing something mean, I don't think I'll ever understand! xo

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  11. I'm glad you're back! Your blog is definitely one of my absolute favourites. I often feel a little lost in what I'm doing too, but my boyfriend always says to keep trying and persevering, but it can be so hard sometimes! The internet can be a very draining place sometimes. I also have to just say I love your little bunny night light, what a cutie. xxx

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    1. I think the key is to always keep trying but I agree, it can be difficult sometimes <3

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  12. glad your back jennie :).. I totally agree that its good to step back once in a while, and its natural to feel lost in what your doing from time to time. Moving home after uni has been a massive step for me, with little to do here, I sometimes feel envious of my friends still living it up away from home!! ..planning is always fun, cant beat a little note writing :) ..cant wait to read more of your wonderful posts xx

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    1. I completely agree! Aww thank you lovely! xo

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  13. Welcome back! It's definitely good to have time to yourself away from the internet and social media in general. Sometimes I feel a little too caught up in things, too pressured to write another post to keep up with other bloggers. I like to blog about happy things, or at least things that are as positive as possible. And as silly as it sounds, I get jealous (not in a bad way, of course) of other bloggers who have really nice things, or go to nice places often even though I'm sure they mean to share good news as well.

    I love having to-do lists, I get quite frazzled without them :P

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    1. I think that's a very natural feeling! Ahh I get exactly the same! xo

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  14. I hate feeling down, but my cat always helps me <3
    http://coeursdefoxes.blogspot.com/

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  15. I've been feeling the exact same as you recently, this weekend was awful and I spent all of it wallowing in self pity! I told myself I'd get an early night on Sunday and start again Monday, and I feel much better now :) Glad you're back! xo

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    1. Yay, glad you're feeling better too! xo

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  16. Such a lovely post, Jennie x

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  17. Missed your blog! I agree with you about getting caught up in comparison on the internet... my husband and I are in different countries at the moment and it was not easy to read about everyone else's valentine's day fun without feeling a teensy bit sorry for myself! Anyhow I always love your warm and inspiring posts!!

    Ellie | Ellalogy 

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    1. Oh gosh, I can imagine! I hope you're doing well lovely lady! <3

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  18. I have missed you and your posts! So glad you are back and I totally understand all that you say in this post. Glad you have found some inspiration and have lots of to-do lists, they can be a great way of picking you up when you are feeling a little blue. I am sure you will achieve all your dreams, in time and with some hard work, you totally deserve too :) x

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  19. Good You're back :) Taking a break is always good. I even think we should have an internation weekend without internet :) I know nasty comments can hurt, but don't worry - You've got people who love You around :)They are the ones whose opinion really matter :)

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  20. I totally agree with you Jennie! Sometimes everyone needs a break, even if it's their true passion, their is nothing wrong with stepping away.

    I've missed you and your blog! I'm glad your back ;)

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  21. Lovely post Jennie, it's really nice reading honest posts like these. I agree too, it's so important to take a step back sometimes from the internet. I try have one day a week where I take a break from it all xx

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    1. That's a really good idea, I think I'll do that too! <3

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  22. I'm so glad you're back [one of my favourite blogs!], but I do think it's good that you had a bit of time away from the 'blogsphere'. I really hope you feel happier soon.xx

    P.S. Mentioned you in my last blog post :)

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  23. Ahh, what a lovely post. I've been trawling through your past posts and your honesty is just really refreshing. As a newbie blogger, I've never experienced anything negative, but I can't quite wrap my head around anyone saying anything negative to "biggie" bloggers either anyway! Mindboggling! I guess it is a by product of opening you life to the internet, but no one deserves that. I was feeling a bit glum lately and wallowing a bit too much. I bought myself some tulips and popped them in a watering can by my window- such a daft wee thing but it really lifted my spirits! I think you're doing the right thing by spring cleaning and planning :) xxx

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    1. Tulips are the best flowers for instantly making everything seem a little brighter! <3

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  24. It's horrible when you start to feel like that - I know the feeling. the fact you were able to perk yourself up and feel motivated is fantastic though :) I look forward to seeing your posts back in my feed, I've missed you Jennie! xx

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    1. It's never a good feeling, but bouncing back is awesome <3

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  25. This was exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you, Jennie. I, too, now have lists, notes and inspiration everywhere!

    Good luck to you,
    Kisa.

    P.S. Fondant Fancies? You rock.

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  26. I'm very glad you're back, I've been missing your new posts popping up. It's definitely good to step back and have a break sometimes, it's far too easy to get bogged down in something even if it is something you love.

    By the way, where did you get your polka dot curtains from, I've been searching for some for ages without much luck?!

    Laura xx

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  27. I know what it's like to feel sad. I didn't go into college 2day, I'm a bit quiet while the rest of them are all talking about their mad weekends and all. I always like how you put nice things on your blog and I really like new white bun:) looks all glowy sitting beside the new dot curtains.

    maid in ireland
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    1. Aww thank you lovely! I hope you're feeling a little better now <3

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  28. I am so happy you are back! Sometimes the best thing anyone can do for themselves is to take a step back and re-evaluate how they are feeling. I did the same thing for myself a while back and came back to feeling myself so much quicker because I took some proper time out for myself..
    xxx

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  29. By reading your post I felt very refreshed and also enjoyed it a lot. We are really glad to have you back.

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  30. I'm really happy that you're back! And I sometimes feel like blogging is a "good news show" like people only tell the best stuff about themselves and it's really easy to get cought up in that. I wish more people wrote like you do, you show your emotions in a very honest way, it makes me relate to you.

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    1. Thank you, it has always been my goal to be honest although I know I am sometimes guilty of only talking about the good things! xo

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  31. This is a lovely post Jennie, and so very true - it's so easy to get caught up in how wonderful everyone else's lives are and not take the time to notice how wonderful our own is. I'm glad you're feeling more positive!

    Jesss xo

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  32. loved this post jennie! its so easy to get bogged down with everything else thats going on, sometimes you just need a little time out. i loved the perks of being a wallflower, definitely cried my way though at least half of it. glad to hear you're feeling more positive about things now, sometimes all it takes is a bit of planning. list making really helps me to sort out everything in my life too xx

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    1. It surprised me how much I loved it, I wasn't expecting to like it! Lists are amazing for sure! xo

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  33. The best and worst thing about the Internet is that it allows us to pick the moments we want to share and then edit them to look perfect. Real life is so much better though! I hope you feel a little bit better x

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    1. You're right, real life is much better! Thank you <3

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  34. Its always best to have a break for it bit, helps to clear the mind haha xx


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  35. Hi Jennie, i keep getting an advert every time i click on a page, it something to do with the 'mama' film, does that mean anything to you? Sorry I thought i better let you know, is anyone else having this problem?

    Jennie, this post could be directed to me personally, everything you was saying in the blog post i completely understood what you meant. It was worse for me last year when i had my miscarriage, the only thing i could do was to pick myself up again and start from scratch. I agree with Ampersaand post, the best thing is to pick the moment in your life you want to share and then you can edit how you want to.

    :) Its always good to have a good read from you. xx

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    1. Hello! Apologies for that, it's an ad from the advert network I'm a part of, I know it's been a bit annoying - it'll hopefully be gone soon! Thank you lovely! xo

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  36. awe i am so sorry you've been having a bout of the blues lately Jennie! I definitely think I get like that at times too, perhaps too often as well.
    I also totally agree that sometimes taking a wee break, even from something you love, can be the "refreshing moment" you need to get fully back into a life you love

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    1. Absolutely, it's good to feel refreshed <3

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  37. I'm sorry you've been feeling so blue :( I hope you're OK. I miss your posts xx

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