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Tuesday, 6 August 2013

A few things I would like to do...

This morning has been very much like any other morning. I woke up, opened my eyes but instead of detangling myself from my duvet immediately, quickly thinking about everything I need to get done today & reaching my hand out to find my glasses only to knock everything else over in the process, I just... paused. I am as blind as a bat without my glasses, everything is a blur but sometimes I like looking at things in all their blurry glory, sometimes things begin to make a little more sense when everything doesn't have to be so crystal clear.

I've made no secret that I've been feeling all out of sorts and much to my relief I'm not alone. If you've emailed me or left a comment on my last post - thank you, so much! You took some of the weight off my shoulders, a problem shared is a problem halved, or so they say anyway. A good friend of mine suggested I scribble a few things down that I would like to do either over the course of or at some point in my life, they said I'd have to wait for a moment for the fog to clear but that I would know when the time was right. That moment was this morning and I thought it might be nice to share just a few things from my list, in the hopes that you might share something from yours in a comment below.

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01. Read more books. 
This one hit me at approximately 2am last night and I immediately opened a Good Reads account. I haven't read a book because I wanted to read it in a very long time, partly because I've had to read a fair amount for University and partly because, well, I'm actually not sure. When I was younger I would read at every possible opportunity, but since the internet and all the distractions that come with it, I've barely read anything. There are so many books I want to read, so many I want to re-read and so many that right now I don't even know exist but I'll want to read when I discover them. I've really missed getting lost in another world, in another life, so it's time to fix that. First on my list is The Virgin Suicides, I've made a good start already, so if you need me today, that's where I'll be!

02. Get married. 
One day, whenever the time is right. Somewhere quiet, somewhere secret, with just our parents there and as spontaneously as it's possible to be.

03. Own a sweet little cottage that's in the countryside but somewhere close to the sea. 
I miss the sea even more than I ever thought possible, especially in the winter. The seaside in the winter is one of the most magical places, the grey mist and the salty air are good for the soul. If we're talking in dream home terms, I would love a little room I could set up a dark room in. Printing my own pictures is something I also miss terribly.

04. Have a family. 
This is one of the things I am most excited about and incidentally, one of the things that terrifies me the most. I’m already excited to learn about them, learn what they like and what they don’t. How to make them smile and laugh. To celebrate all their milestones, making them feel like the most special person in the entire world. To protect them as much as possible. To read to them, to escape into these imaginary worlds to see where their own imaginations take them. Maybe they’ll want to write or teach or make art or work on films. Whatever they want to do and whoever they want to be, I hope I’ll be able to guide them, to give them the best start and teach them something that will stay with them as they grow. And I'll just apologise to them now for their terrible eyesight, but you know, glasses aren't that bad!

05. Write a book. 
Now, I am most definitely not a writer, not by any stretch of the imagination. I haven't written a story since I was a child because there's been something holding me back. Often I am my own worst critic and I've never quite been able to put anything I was really proud of down on paper. A few weeks ago a couple of characters just popped into my head and they've been swimming around up there ever since. I'm hopeful about this one, even if no one else ever reads it when it's finished, just getting it finished is my goal.

If you would like to share one of your goals or dreams, that would be incredibly wonderful.
xoxo

54 comments:

  1. Lovely Jennie, if you sit down and type those things for us to read, YOU ARE de facto A WRITER.

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  2. getting married and having a family is the most scariest thing, but being in my late 20's now, i'm seeing all my friends around me doing just that and I wonder if it's something that I should be doing too (some are on their 3rd child!). It makes me feel bad about my life but I have to remind myself that it is good that I don't have those types of responsibilities (yet). xxx

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    1. You've achieved so much already, there's definitely nothing for you to feel bad about! <3

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  3. Ah, it's so funny that you mentioned getting married in a little private ceremony! That's just the type of thing I would like to do too. I'm quite shy and I don't really like being the centre of attention so that would suit me perfectly! <3 xxx

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    1. I think we are so similar! Being the centre of attention is one of the things I hate the most! xo

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  4. I've been a bit like this with the story idea. I have no idea really about writing, but sometimes I get a bit of a snippet of an idea. I have tried to do Nanowrimo in the past, which did spur me on a little and encourage me to write, although I didn't get anywhere near 10k words written in the month.

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    1. I don't think I could manage 10k words a month either! xo

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  5. Love this post Jennie :) hope you're feeling better and so glad to hear that you're getting the support you deserve :) I definitely have some things in common with your list though they also scare me right now! I hope you do write about the characters that you mentioned, I never have that happen and am in awe of those who do :) (it's a sign!) I have lots of dreams that I like to mostly stay quiet about but one of them is to move abroad and build upon them :)

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    1. Thank you! Moving abroad sounds like it would be an incredible adventure! xo

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  6. Great list missy! I'm sure you'll have no problem achieving all of them.

    Raffles Bizarre Blog

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  7. 2 and 4 are top of my list at the moment, we can't wait to get married (hopefully in 2015) i just need Dean to get around to proposing! Once we've been married a few years we'll start trying for babies... I can't wait to meet our children and see if they're perfect mini versions of us! xx

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  8. A nice set of goals there - I wish you everything you need to look back one day and realise you've achieved them all.

    I'm still thinking, I'm not sure I'll ever work out what I really want to do. I have a massive list over on my blog - a bucket list - which is always expanding simply because I want to always be trying new things and experiencing life.

    One big life goal I have is very similar to yours - I would absolutely love to own a holiday cottage or home, and it would have to be by the sea. The sea for me is something that represents power, strength, beauty, fun, peace, childhood, dreams. There is something about the sea that draws me there - my Grandad used to pop out and say "I'm going to check the sea is still there". So whether it is in the UK or abroad, as long as it's by the sea I'll be happy.

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    1. There's something incredibly magical about the sea <3

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  9. I would love to have a home by the sea. -Hanna Marie

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  10. What a great list of desires Jennie! You will make THE most amazing Mum when your time comes and as for feeling alittle excited and a lot scared all at the same time; that is completely natural I can assure you!

    As for me, my biggest dream which I really really hope will come to fruition in the next 2 years is to own a small(ish) cottage with a big garden. Somewhere were I can find some peace from all the craziness x

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    1. Aww, that means the world, thank you! I think that sounds like a lovely goal and I have no doubt you'll get your sweet cottage <3

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  11. You make me feel so superficial and not down-to-earth because if I was to get married I'd want a big wedding that I'd planned for a year! My dream is basically to travel as much as possible :)

    Annie | www.raspberphobia.com

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    1. Aww no, that's definitely not superficial at all! xo

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  12. Good luck with all. It is good to have goals :).

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  13. Such a nice post, and yes I agree with what's already been said, you already are a great writer! I would love to have a family someday too, even though I agree that the thought is a bit terrifying! And I'd also like to make more time for leisure reading. I think the key is to set aside a time without interruptions. Otherwise I get too distracted by the internet and other randomness!

    Ellie | Ellalogy

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    1. It's so easy to get distracted, I've really been enjoying the half an hour or so of calm I've been setting aside to read <3

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  14. You are such an amazing writer, don't doubt yourself you've been writing on here for a very long time so you have most definitely got the skill. I agree the internet is my biggest distraction I easily find myself locked in my room on my macbook pro for hours , I even forgot to eat lunch today because I was busy writing posts and replying to comments. I really do hope you finish the book , I would certainly be one of the first to get my hands on the book!

    Eloise | simplynaturale

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    1. It's so easy to lose the entire day online, I do that frequently! xo

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  15. These are some nice goals to have in life :) I want a little cottage in the countryside as well (and get married of course). I decided to start reading more last year and it has actually gone pretty well (as you I read a lot when I was younger and stopped when I started University)

    You're welcome to add me on Good Reads (my username is NiinaObvious)

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  16. Getting married would be a big thing for me right now. We're engaged but financial worries mean it isn't a reality for at least a couple of years - since we planned to marry at the latest by Spring 2015 this has really getting me down recently.

    Please don't doubt yourself, Jennie! You are a fantastic writer and your blog is one of the only ones I can truly say I adore. I read every post even if I don't always comment and I agree with Eloise..if you finish the book, I'll be right in line to buy one!

    Futures; a Beauty & lifestyle blog

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    1. Aww that's a shame, I'm sure you'll get there very soon! Thank you so much <3 xo

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  17. Nice goals, I'm sure you'll do them all :) I would say my main goals would be to visit very continent and have kids :)

    Katie xx | Katies World

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  18. Your posts are always so inspiring! If you don't mind, I would love to do post like this one day on my blog :) I love making lists xo

    www.zdevania.blogspot.com

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    1. Of course I don't mind, I love to read! Xo

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  19. I can really relate to these goals, It's too easy to get out of sorts at the best of times. I'd like to get married and write a book. And not worry so much about people, situations. Well done for opening the Good Reads a/c. there's some great things to read there. x.o :)

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    1. I'm excited to discover some new reads <3

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  20. I also have been trying to read more books, just started Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn!

    -Maddy @ www.BeautyBanterBlog.com

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  21. You are a great writer, I enjoyed reading your post.

    www.hungrycaramella.blogspot.com

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  22. Good luck with your goals :) I'd also love to write a book one day, although I'm not sure what I'd write about! xx

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  23. Ever since coming back from Cornwall I have been dreaming of having a little cottage near the sea to escape to. Hopefully some day =)

    Teffy || Teffys Perks Blog

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  24. I don't know where you've got this idea that you're not a writer from, but you are definitely good with words. Go for it Jennie, I for one would buy your book :)
    I really want to have a family, too - I'm so excited for meeting little people and getting to raise them :) I think you'll be a fantastic mum!
    Lovely post, once again, thank you for sharing.

    Jess xo

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  25. I swear we lead the same life Jennie, ha! All my same dreams (especially the little cottage squee!) though I don't think I'd be too good at writing a book, perhaps just designing the cover instead! x

    The Little Things

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    1. I think we're super similar! <3 <3

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  26. When time is right you have it all. You are working on your book already. Or a magazine ;)



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  27. My wedding was small and perfect. It was super low key & I wore flip flops and a floaty skirt. We had 10 people there and it was so beautiful. No stress involved at all.
    You should write a book - thats so exciting & you just never know it might be the best thing ever.
    I'd really like to help my dad recover from his stroke & am thinking of moving to Scotland to help him. I feel guilty for not living closer & it weighs heavy on my heart and mind x

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  28. A house by the sea must be magical, especially a cosy cottage :)

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