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Sunday, 4 August 2013

The Sunday Catch Up.

01. Yesterday my little to-do list was completely put to one side when I remembered Harry Potter was on the tellybox. The third book is one of my absolute favourites I'm not entirely sure why, there's just something about it; it's one of those books that instantly takes me back to a particular period of time and I think there's something incredibly magical about that. It was nice to escape the real world for those three hours, the rain was softly tapping on my window and I was snuggled under a comfy duvet with my thoughts completely invested in the characters and their story. Yesterday afternoon was a good one, it was one I really needed I think.

02. I've been spending a lot of time over the past few weeks or so, admittedly probably a little too much time, inside my own thoughts with my head in the clouds trying my very best to figure things out. Trying to figure out who I am, what I really want from life, which path I'm on and where it might possibly take me. I don't think I'm really any closer to figuring any of those things out and I'm not completely convinced I ever will or that I'm even supposed to. I partly think what's meant to be will be, but also that it's my responsibility to make my own destiny, nothing is going to happen if I just sit around waiting for it. Recently I've found myself coasting along, each day has been so similar it's almost as if they've blended into one, which is probably part of the reason why I can't quite get my head around the fact it's August already. I haven't had the drive or the inspiration to do anything, which makes me feel sad and in turn inspiration seems so far away. It's a bit of a vicious circle. I haven't wanted to do anything apart from stay at home, in my 'safe place', a place where nothing eventful ever really happens. There's nothing wrong with that, but when a day or so of that starts to become a week or two, I understand that needs to stop. I'm working on that.

03. Tomorrow I have to be a real grown up and I'm not looking forward to it at all. Tomorrow morning I have to go to the dentist. That appointment I made a few weeks ago has suddenly come around very quickly and I feel a bit sick at the thought of it. I've not been to the dentist for many years, which I know is terrible, but I'm completely terrified. The last time I went I had to have a filling, I remember it being super painful but I didn't want to make a fuss & my dentist was pretty abrupt with me. Not a fun experience so I decided that I simply wasn't going back. And I didn't. Fast forward 9 or so years, I know I need to go. I mean, I'll have to go at some point and I'd rather it be now (& accept that I'll have to have a filling or two & hopefully nothing more) than to wait a few years until something hurts or chips or falls out and I'll need some serious work doing. At this point I'm just hoping I don't burst into tears, I can do this, right?

04. Since switching laptops I've had adblock enabled without realising (proves my head has been firmly in the clouds recently), so I've not been seeing any adverts on any websites including my own. I make no secret of the fact that I'm with Glam Media, I do run adverts on my site and I'm still trying to get the balance just right. At the moment sometimes this includes a full page ad and I'm not completely sure how I feel about that. Sometimes I think it's a bit much, a bit intrusive almost but then other times I wonder how many of you also have adblock enabled on your browsers? It usually disappears with a page refresh afterall. Do full page modification adverts bother you? Do you read via bloglovin' and end up not really clicking through to blogs? Or is the content alone the thing you focus on when you're catching up on your favourite reads?

This has been such a disjointed post, I know I'll read back over this in a few months and think eek, I could have worded everything much better. August was supposed to be a month of posting daily, I was so excited but it's not something that can be forced, at least not successfully and I don't want to half-arse anything as much as I'm annoyed with myself for feeling this way. I think I need to take today, give myself a bit of a stern talking to and I'll see you soon!

I'd love to hear your thoughts on absolutely anything I've mentioned here. 
I could really use a little advice.
xoxo

46 comments:

  1. Funny you like Harry Potter and The Prizoner of Azkaban so much, it is my least favourite firstly because Voldemort doesnt make an appearance, second: I am so, so scared of Dementors, and also because it made me so very very sad that they cut so much Sirius out of the movie that had been in the book :(

    I haven't been to the dentist for seven years. I am NOT afraid of a dentist, I just keep forgetting and forgetting and I never think I have problems with my teeth. For health insurance, I should go though ... just in case. I know I won't, as long as I'm not in deep, deep pain. Just because I will keep forgetting. So thumbs up for you making an appointment!

    Lots of love, I really enjoyed reading this rather rambling post, they're my favourites!

    Maria

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    1. It's my favourite from when they're younger, I'm not really sure why, for some reason I just love all the characters interaction & they get to save buckbeak! I also love Sirius and wish he'd been in the movie more!

      Haha thank you! xo

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  2. I organise all my RSS subs in Bloglovin' but ALWAYS click through to read on the actual blog - I hate the way BL formats stuff and I know that I like to see where clicks come from and assume everyone else does too so I always click through to the actual site xxx

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  3. I am also terrified of the dentist, I haven't been for 2 years which I know isn't that long but I know I will end up just leaving it until something hurts which is not good.

    I have ad blocker on my browser so I never see adverts but before I'd installed it I didn't mind them unless they opened over the blog content. I've been contacted by a company who want to run video ads on my blog and I'm really unsure of whether I want to. The money would be a huge help but I'm just not sure!

    woah long rambly comment, sorry!

    Tori

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    1. The dentist is just always a horrible experience all round I think!

      I don't mind ads either, I tend to leave my ad blocker on most of the time mainly to avoid youtube ads but when I don't, they don't really bother me!
      xo

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  4. You will be great at the dentist! Always always tell them if something doesn't feel right, even if they are grumpy, it's their job to help you not hurt you, so don't be afraid to let them know whats up! You don't see them that often anyway. Ad's don't tend to bother me, it's the video ones that start automatically that drive me crazy, I'm like, where is this coming from, how do I stop it?!

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    1. That's very true, I have to go back for a filling but if it hurts I'll definitely be letting them know! xo

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  5. I've been spending too much time thinking about things like that too. Its just so hard to decide. -Hanna Marie

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    1. It is! I hope you figure things out soon too <3

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  6. Prisoner of Azkaban is my favourite too! I think it's because it concentrates far more on relationships and building character than it does with defeating Voldemort :)
    As for point 002, I am in exactly the same position. I'm feeling a little lost and I think my problem is that I'm just waiting for somebody to come and kick me into shape, rather than attempting to do so myself. I feel as if I've completely wasted my July, and the rest of my summer as well to be honest, and it's not a great feeling - I just hope I can find my head and myself soon enough, and I really hope that you are able to too :)
    I hope you are okay, Jennie :) xx

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    1. I agree, the relationships between the characters has always been one of my favourite elements of the books and I think this is my favourite from their younger years. And I love Sirius!
      I'm sure you will, you definitely haven't wasted anything! <3 xo

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  7. It's funny, I think Harry Potter is one of those comforting movies that always makes me feel a little better/happier. Goblet of Fire is definitely my favourite though! Dentists can be super scary and I feel the same way, I think it's because you aren't in control of the situation and you can't really see what's happening, but I'm sure if you let them know you are feeling a little worried they will do their best to reassure you.
    xxxx <3

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    1. Aww thank you sweet, I hope it all goes okay! <3

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  8. I can relate to so many of your points.
    1. everytime I read or watch Harry Potter I rethink my favourite.
    2. I have been trying to sort myself out this year (starting with.high dosage Zoloft) but after much thought, I'm no closer to knowing what I want to do with my life. I am getting closer to being the me I want to be so that's a plus.
    3. Don't worry, last time I went to the dentist I got told I had to have my wisdom teeth surgically removed. So I had a cry. In front of dentist and dental nurse.

    Another insightful and lovely post as always x

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    1. Eep, I think I would have had a cry too! xo

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  9. I love The Prisoner of Azkaban - it's my favourite Harry Potter book for sure. I wouldn't worry too much abut being too inside your own head. I think that everything will work out as it's supposed to in the end.
    The dentist should be fine. I went for the first time in 13 years last year and my teeth were all good. Even if you need something done, at least you will have done something about it rather than let it fester for years to come.
    I'm not a huge fan of a full page ad but it doesn't necessarily stop me from reading a post. I agree with Danielle - those video ads are super annoying.
    Emma.x
    StyleMouth

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  10. i do look at some of the ads - i tend to click into the blogs from bloglovin for the full "blog reading" experience lol.
    and i totally understand that feeling about growing up that you mentioned in your 2nd point. i recommended this book called "20 something 20 everything" on my blog (recent "things i love" post) that has really helped me - it has step by step self reflections that help girls in our 20s to filter through everything and figure out what we really want - not what other people have influenced us to THINK we want. it's been really insightful and helpful for me so i definitely think you should check it out :)

    rachel x
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    1. Ooh thank you for the recommendation, I'll definitely check it out, it sounds like something I'd really benefit from! <3

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  11. Firstly thank-you so much for all the lovely comments you have put on my blog I truly to appreciate them, especially coming from you! Anyway heres a very big long comment for you bubbs hopefully I will help you out and have a good ol' chat.

    I love harry potter its one of those stories you never get sick of. Admittedly as a child I wrote my own harry potter stories and most of them were based upon the dementors which i was petrified of at the time...along with daleks *cringe* .If you haven't been to the Harry Potter Studios I would seriously recommend it , its great and it may take your mind off everything! I've got the sudden urge to watch harry potter again think i'm going to watch Goblet of Fire thats my favourite one when they are older , but its a toss up between Prisoner of Azkaban or Philosophers Stone , from when they are young. Everyones got to love abit of Ron Weasley especially when he is scared " follow the spiders, why couldn't it be follow the butterflies".
    At the moment I'm also in the same situation as you. Ive just completed my a-levels waiting for my final results on the 15th of August. Its such a scary time for me as I feel so much pressure to get the grades,I took Chemistry,Biology, History and Business Studies so not the easiest of choices. Plus I have no idea what I want to do in life I'm not sure about university as there are so many people who don't use their degrees and the whole idea of the debt just plain scares me. To be honest id much rather get on a job ladder and work my way up. The problem being I don't know which job! So since finishing school I've also been in my safe place relaxing ,mulling over my future life. But one things for sure I'm going to try to find the job which makes me happy and hopefully pays well too. Here's hoping we both have a sudden brainwave on what we want to do!
    I've never been afraid of the dentist, probably because I've never had any problems with my teeth, to this day I've never had a filling or braces alike (touches wood). But i'm sure you'll be fine deep breaths and just remember to tell them if you're feeling pain its their job to do whats needed in the most caring way possible!
    As a beauty blogger myself I don't mind it when bloggers alike have advertisement on their blogs its fair-game. But I've got to admit I hate the full page ad which covers every edge of the blog. I feel you've got a great balance and if I was you, I wouldn't change a thing! Have faith in yourself you've achieved so much, be proud hun !

    Eloise xo | http://simplynaturale.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. Aww you're welcome sweet, I've been really enjoying reading your posts.

      Ahh that is so cute. The dementors were super scary, never being able to enjoy anything good again would be the worst thing ever. I haven't been to the studios but I really want to, I think it'll be a bit like stepping into my childhood imagination. Ron is one of my favourite characters, I always wanted to be a Weasley! <3

      Good luck for your results day! I remember being SO incredibly nervous for mine, I'm sure you will have done amazingly. I think you have the potential to do absolutely anything you want and whatever you decide will be the right thing for you. <3 xo

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  12. Glad to hear you enjoyed a lovely, cosy Saturday, sometimes there is nothing better :) I can relate to how you feel- I think at this age (I'm 23), most of us feel quite lost and unsure of who we are or exactly what we want. I've been feeling the same lately. I'm sure you will figure it out soon and hope you feel a little happier, perhaps start with some small changes and go from there.

    Hope the dentist's goes OK. You've done the best thing by booking your appointment and I'm sure you will be fine and just think, this time tomorrow it will all be over :)

    You deserve to be happy and content- you seem such a lovely, sweet person with so much love and kindness and I'm sure you will go far whatever you decide <3

    Sophie xx

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    1. I think that's a great idea, sometimes the smallest of changes makes the most difference! <3

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  13. Harry Potter films are the perfect reason to kick back and forget about your to do list so I certainly don't blame you.

    Hope you manage the dentist ok, my poor mum doesn't like the dentist either and she can't even bear to talk about it when she has an appointment.

    Victoria
    FlorenceandMary.com

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    1. Neither can I, it's the worstt! xo

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  14. What a coincidence! I went to the dentist yesterday and got told I had 2 cavities and had them filled in. It wasn't as painful as I thought it would be but I was on the dentist's chair for SO long. And I get them quite often which frustrates me because I take care of my teeth and my boyfriend who has terrible dental hygiene (TMI, lol?) NEVER gets them. :/

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    1. Ahh I have to have a filling very soon too, not looking forward to it but it's good to hear that it didn't hurt too much! That's so unfair, lucky guy! xo

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  15. I somehow knew you'd be a Potter fan too :) As for adverts, I don't mind them at all. You get them on all other websites so why not blogs too? It costs money to run a good blog and I understand that so to view some adverts in exchange for the upkeep of my favourite blogs, I'm happy with that. Even full page adverts, the more the merrier. I don't block adverts and I do tend to click on ones that interest me, because I'm nosy like that :) The only adverts I don't like are when I feel the whole post has been steered to include a certain linked word that didn't fit there or has only been included to make money, it's not harmonious and I feel a bit conned. I'm starting to avoid those blogs! Claire x

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    1. Thank you for letting me know!! <3

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  16. I despise and dread going to the dentist as well - I try to put it off as much as possible. It's quite terrible, I'm sure it's been years since my last visit, and none of them have been pleasant!

    I can really resonate with #2. I'm also feeling quite unclear about where it is I want to go and what I want to do. Though I'm in a job at the moment that occupies most of my waking hours, it's certainly not something that I can say I'm passionate about (or even interested in). It's hard to figure it all out, if we ever do. But at the same time, thinking about it and at least trying to make a change seems so important - and the more time I spend not doing exactly that, feels like precious time wasted. You're definitely not alone in what you feel!

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    1. It's never a pleasant experience, that's for sure!

      I don't think we ever really figure everything out, I think it's the trying that's the most important part! xo

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  17. Oh good luck at the dentist Jennie- it's never fun but don't let them be rude to you at all, you're paying them for a service after all. I haven't been for years either, as a child my dentist would remove or fill a tooth with every single visit and I was later told that most of the work was unnecessary so its made me really wary to go back. You've inspired me to give it another go though! xx

    Visit The Other Side Of Cool

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    1. Oh gosh, that's not fun! I think my Mum said that they did something similar to her a few years ago, she had a lot of things done that weren't really neccessary! I think that's awful because you have to put all your trust in someone, thinking they're doing the best for you! x

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  18. I always enjoy reading your posts! You sound like a wonderful person. Good luck at the dentist tomorrow - I hate going myself hehe...
    xox
    www.zdevania.blogspot.com

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  19. It feels like you need a hug xx I hope all went well at the dentist today :/ About ads, I don't mind full page ones, but the ones that have moving stuff can be a little distracting sometimes.. xx

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    1. Aww thank you, it was okay. I have to go back for a filling though, boo! xo

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  20. I also put off the dentist for as long as I can! After putting it off for 6 years, I finally went last year and needed four filing (hor embarrassing!). I did it all without anaesthetic though, and the only thing I can tell you is its never gonna be as bad as it is in your thoughts! I for one don't mind ads at all, never have! xx

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    1. It could have been a lot worse, I have to go back for a filling and I'm crossing my fingers it won't hurt! Xo

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  21. Like you I'm spending a lot of time trying to work out what I'm supposed to be doing with my life at the moment. I've never been career minded, I've simply fallen into my current career path and sadly it is probably too late to change as I can't afford to stop paying my bills. Funny how life turns out. At the beginning of the year I promised that I would be true to myself this year, and that included working out what it was that I wanted - I'm no closer to the latter but I have at least worked out a few things about what I enjoy and what I don't, guess it's a start!

    Good luck in your continued quest to find your destiny...

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    1. I'm exactly the same, not career minded at all, but that's okay. I think that you've made a great start, it's always the starting that's the most difficult! xo

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  22. I hate the dentist too, went a little while back for a couple of fillings, the thought terrified me, but after some numbness it was much better and I could eat again without it hurting. So I guess it's not all bad.

    Love Harry potter too, just for the record.

    I think it's hard to know what your doing with your life or where it's going, I guess it's just about doing things you love and things that make you happy.

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    1. Harry Potter is the best :D

      I think you're right, it's all about being happy <3

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