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Monday, 21 October 2013

Last weekend.

These past few days have been all about functioning and not much more. When I've not been in my pyjamas, I've been wearing my favourite smock dress with my time turner necklace just so I looked a little more put together. It hasn't been the best of weekends. I've been pretty much make up free the entire time and it's actually been quite refreshing facing things with a bare face. When something happens in your life, that hits you like a tonne of bricks, it's remarkable how quickly many things instantly feel trivial. My only essentials have been the The Rose Tree lip balm* which is a little jar of wonder and MAC Creme Cup lipstick because it's an easy to wear yet pretty shade. 

Yesterday I let myself feel sad. I sat in silence until the silence became too loud to think coherent thoughts. I scribbled some pretentious drivel in my notebook about the fragility of life and the like. I watched some films I know make me cry and then I watched one that makes me smile. I listened to Asleep by The Smiths on repeat while staring up at the ceiling for a little while. I did some damage to my credit card by shopping online, which helped even though I'm certain I'll return it all when it arrives. I read the first Harry Potter book from cover to cover, partly because it's a world I like to retreat to sometimes and partly because I have to refer to it in my essay that's due later this week but haven't started yet. And then I went to sleep, for a long time.

Today my thoughts feel less foggy. Today I pick up where I left off on Saturday evening. I've lit one of my favourite NEOM candles* even though I was saving it for a cold autumn evening because it seems silly to save things, it's time to live in the moment and enjoy the present, not long for a trivial future event. I feel different. But life goes on. Today is a new day.

Love, Jennie
xoxo

90 comments:

  1. I have days like that, when I just want to watch a sad film! It's good that you started the next, fresh, a new day!! No good staying in that mood! Hope you have a good day :-)

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  2. Love your photos as always. I hope today and this week is better for you lovely.

    Beauty and Lifestyle Blog

    xx

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    1. Thank you! I hope you have a lovely week too <3

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  3. Hope you're feeling less sad today Jennie :)
    Sophie
    x

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  4. Oh Jennie, I hope you're ok. I find that it can be hard to find the line between "letting myself be sad" and then "getting on"; if I don't progress to the second stage I can often find the sadness consumes me and I can't function.

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    1. It's definitely a fine balance, it's okay to be sad sometimes <3

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  5. p.s if you ever need to vent, feel free to put all of your thoughts in a letter or an email, I'll always listen xx

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    1. Thank you lovely, I appreciate it <3

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  6. What an unusual and pretty pendant - the little hourglass is really lovely! Xx

    http://makeupbycandlelight.blogspot.co.uk/

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  7. I really need to get hold of Creme Cup, it looks such a nice shade! Hope your week's off to a good start post-Harry Potter - I always think the books are the literary version of comfort food!

    Becks xo
    thenotsosecretdiary.com

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    1. I agree, that's a perfect way to put it! xo

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  8. I have a lot of days like that too Jennie, but I'm happy to hear you are feeling a little better now <3 I always like to retreat into Harry's world if I'm feeling worried or stressed, and somehow it is very comforting to me. I hope you are enjoying your course too! I am so sure you're going to do brilliantly, and how awesome that you get to reference Potter! I wish I had got to do a couple more essays like that. <3 xxx

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    1. It's a very comforting place <3

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  9. I hope you feel better soon :)

    PS: I would mind reading your pretentious drivel about the fragility of life and such ^^

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  10. So sorry to hear you had a bad weekend; I hope things get brighter for you soon. Letting yourself feel sad is so important, I find; it's so much better to let yourself be upset for a while instead of pretending you're OK. Asleep is the perfect song for bad days too. I hope you feel better soon and good luck with your essay xx

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  11. We all have days like this. I hope you're ok! Harry Potter can make everything better :P I remember when I first read that book it took me days and now I can read it in a few hours!
    Your time turner necklace is so cute too!
    Keep smiling lovely!
    Andrea xxx

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  12. Oh Jennie, I'm so sorry you're not feeling 100%. I'm always around if you ever need somebody to talk to and not judge. People say I give pretty good advice :-)

    Lots of love xxx

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    1. Thank you lovely, I appreciate that! xo

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  13. Sorry to hear things are rough, it sounds like you had a pretty good routine down. I think getting lost in the world of Harry Potter cures a lot of troubles x

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  14. I love your smock dress and the necklace. Sorry to hear you've been feeling down, I hope today is a better day for you. Harry Potter always makes things a better
    Rachelx

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  15. One of my besties would LOVE this necklace but I'm so scared she has it already so better not buy her one for Xmas...*SIGH* - It's beautiful!

    Tara x

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    1. Try and sneakily ask in general conversation! xo

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  16. So sad to hear that you haven't had a great weekend :(! I hope you feel heaps better today though! I always escape to Hogwarts when I'm going through a rough patch too. Things will get better, I'm sure of it! <3

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  17. Aw lots of love to you Jennie <3 Sometimes it's the little things that can really get you through & songs and films can be the best at taking you to another place for a while. So glad to hear you are feeling a bit brighter; just know we all care for you & your lovely blog & are behind you 100% <3

    Sophie x

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    1. Thank you sweet, means a lot! <3

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  18. Oof sorry things haven't been great lady. I do the same and tend to retreat into a little bubble to process before taking any action or moving on. Sometimes a little time to ourselves can make the world feel better
    xxx

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  19. Aww hun, I really hope you're well!! You're right life is for living!!! :)

    Love the necklace and the Harry Potter book...I thought it was only me that really enjoyed them still haha! :)

    Layla xx

    www.sprinklesofstyle.co.uk


    p.s - I love yankee candles on cold evenings...they smell fab!!! :) xx

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    1. You're definitely not alone on that! <3

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  20. My heart skips a beat every time I stumble across an HP lover.

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  21. sometimes it's hard to cheer yourself up but i think what you've done sounds like the way to go. i hope you're feeling better after the weekend! **sending positive energy from hong kong** :) xx

    rachel x
    blush&brunch

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  22. Hope you're okay Jennie. I'm feeling a bit down and not myself at the moment. I blame the Autumn!
    http://golddustk.blogspot.co.uk/
    x

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    1. Sending positive vibes your way sweet! xo

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  23. Hope you're feeling better!

    http://itsjessicachoy.blogspot.com/

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  24. So sorry you've been feeling down lovely, hope you're feeling at least a little better now xxx

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  25. I adore the necklace -it's so unusual and different! :) xx

    www.ohsoaddictedtobeauty.blogspot.com

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  26. lovely photos I really want a time turner necklace, I've been having a couple of weeks of feeling like this so I've been drinking lots of tea and watching Buffy again from season one.
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    1. That sounds like a good way to spend your time, I loved Buffy! xo

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  27. I love the necklace, it's so cute, and that mac lipstick is such a pretty shade :) xx

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    1. It's super pretty, really wearable too <3

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  28. Hope you feeling better today :).
    We all need those days where we just shut everything off.

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  29. Good idea with Harry Potter- I tend to re-read or re-watch it every autumn :) A little bit of magic on a gloomy day always helps :)

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  30. I hope you are ok Jennie, sometimes its so difficult to cheer yourself up, but you sound like you're doing a good job, keep your chin up :) and what a lovely necklace :) xx

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  31. I love that Time Turner necklace! I hope your week will be filled with better days than your weekend. But hey, sometimes it's okay to be sad and watch sad movies. Crying it off can feel really good sometimes too! :)

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  32. I have been reading the harry potter series again, it's so comforting to go back to the world of hogwarts :)

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  33. I hope you don't still feel sad, sometimes sad thoughts can just seep in without realising x

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  34. Still in love with the time turner necklace, I'd be trying to re-wind times for hours, ending up wasting more time. Sometimes its okay to do nothing but think everything through, have a cry and a smile and flick through a book or two.To re-adjust and live in the present and think of all the positives coming your way. Just remember each one of us which reads your blog and comments supports you, for being you!

    Eloise | simplynaturale xo

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    1. Hehe I wish it actually worked! Thank you lovely, means a lot! <3

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  35. So sorry to see you've been having a hard time :( I hope you are feeling better now, and things start looking up for you. Big love xxx

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  36. I hope you are ok <3 Really like your smock dress it's lovely. My little sister would love your time turner necklace, definitely a potential Christmas present for her xx

    Jordan-Alice

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  37. That necklace is Amazing. I never knew they existed! I definitely need to buy one ..x And days like that I think, make you appreciate even more that there are always brighter days ahead :)

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    1. Definitely buy one, they're amazing! xo

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  38. Ohh we all have those kind of days (maybe too often) but I think you actually did some lovely things. I bet your sunny days are just around the corner. Also Harry Potter is the perfect way to get lost & forget about this world. Stay strong :)xx

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  39. Hope everything's improving for you! That smock dress is lovely by the way :) xx

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  40. I hope you're okay lovey!
    I really really adore that necklace :)

    Rosie x

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  41. We all have off days, hope you're ok! Harry Potter def has to be one of my fav worlds to escape into.
    Daniella x

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    1. It's a very comforting world <3

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  42. Beautiful necklace. Harry Potter helped me get through some hard times in my life, it's truly magical. Sending you lots of love. (I'm a new visitor by the way, you have a lovely blog:) )

    Paula xxx
    My beauty & lifestyle blog

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  43. I love your necklace :) really sweet :) I think its really good to allow yourself to feel like that because you get it all out of your system and feel better for it! I have to say your down days sound more productive then mine! Hope your feeling better :)

    Katie xx | Katies World

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  44. Oh lovely I hope things are better for you now. I totally love that time turner necklace (I know I commented on it in a previous post). It looks like you could step through it into another universe - does that sound totally mad?! x

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