I had a bit of a moment as I was standing, like so many others, looking skywards as the moon crept slowly across the sun allowing us to experience twilight at nine in the morning. It was almost like a bit of an awakening. Thinking about how many people have watched eclipses over the millenia, who they were, what they liked, if they were happy, what they felt in that moment, it was almost impossible to feel alone. And we're not alone, not really. So I guess I just wanted to say that I know how it feels to wake up each day and feel nothing. And sometimes those feelings pass quickly, but if they don't, never be afraid to ask for help. I got your back, you know. We've all go to look out for each other, because if we don't, what's the point?
It's a jolly good job I have a lot of them because I have officially lost the ability to write at my laptop. These past five years of my degree have resulted in my head equating laptops with work. And that's okay because I now see why so many love to keep paper journals. It's cathartic scribbling on a piece of paper before hopping into bed. So I'll let my brain off associating computers with essays, the end is in sight so I'm hopeful it won't be this way forever.
Side note: don't ever let anyone tell you that you're a failure or that you won't ever achieve anything, because you can do anything. And if you believe you can, then you will. When I dropped out of University at 21 people practically queued up at my door to tell me that I'd ruined my chances of making something of myself. I still often wonder why some seem to get pleasure from trying to tear down others, it must be so draining. But I used that negativity as fuel, and yes it might have taken me a bit longer, but I'll graduate this year. And I'm so proud. Proud that I made a decision and found another path. Proud that I did it myself. And proud that I didn't let anyone else tell me what I could or couldn't do.
So I'm here to tell you that you can do anything that you want to do. I believe in you.
To celebrate nothing in particular I'm heading down to the Harry Potter Studio Tour this week and I cannot wait. Platform 9 3/4 here I come!