It's not measured in numbers or grades. Not really.
They're something tangible I suppose, but so often they're awarded in accordance to a very specific set of parameters.
A lecturer once said to me how nice it would be to not be awarded a grade at the end; to simply be permitted to enjoy, or endure, the journey; to reach the end and look back on the morsels of knowledge that were unlocked along the way.
And I agree.
For those individual morsels have a habit of drawing together at the close, fitting together as if this were the plan all along.
They form a sphere of new information, things learnt about yourself, things learnt about others, new ways of thinking, that proceed to orbit around you.
You are the planet and it is your moon.
And it will stay with you.
It may drift further away, or perhaps one day it may collide with new moons you acquire throughout the years.
But it will always be part of your story.
Leaving traces behind, even if it isn't destined to stay with you in its entirety forever.
And the things you learnt will outweigh a grade awarded on a particular day, under those specific circumstances.
Because they can't see the things that have become a part of you on the journey.
Celebrate or commiserate in the moment.
But know that moment does not have to be forever.
You are the planet. You have captured your moon. And this is part of your story.
Treasure your knowledge. Your abilities. Your life lessons. Your thought processes.
And it will be okay. Everything will be okay.
There is always a path to your dreams.
If you believe, you can do anything.
And if you don't believe, or can't allow yourself to believe right now then that's okay too.
Because I believe in you.
And I'm rooting for you.
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