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Monday, 1 August 2016

Dear August




August, already. It almost doesn't seem possible.

I've been thinking a lot about being busy and what that really means. There are different kinds of busy, but it's almost as if there has been some kind of strange competition as to who can be, or at least appear to be, the busiest at any given time.

There's being unsustainably busy, when you've taken on more than can ever be achieved in a particular time frame, but you keep ploughing on because it's the only thing that you know how to do and risk burning out completely. There's being busy but not being especially productive. And there's being distinctly unbusy.

The latter is something I've actively sought to perfect for a long while. I thought that by giving myself enough down time, things wouldn't ever feel too overwhelming and I could mentally check out for a bit. Of course, I was wrong, because it left too much time available for me to wander around the deep recesses of my mind, and the space to overthink myself into oblivion.

My previously allocated free time is now taken up by some freelance writing. It's not the most exciting, or particularly well paid. But I'm almost not really doing it for the money, although I definitely need that too at the moment. However, writing for someone else seems to have allowed for the rediscovery of my motivation, that seemed to have wandered off for a while, to write for myself. It's true when they say that ideas aren't exhaustible.

Anyway, I think what I'm trying to say here is that it turns out there's such a thing as 'just the right kind of busy' and it's far better than being unbusy.

August, you look good.

I've got an appointment to finally get some contact lenses again, so I can reclaim my face from the burden of glasses sometimes. Wearing glasses isn't something I mind too much, but if I can find some lenses to suit my eyes then it'll be nice to have a bit of choice again.

We're going to London to see the Cursed Child this month and I'm hoping that I can avoid all spoilers until then. It's been far too long since I've been to the theatre. I don't know that excited is quite the right word, which I suppose is why I haven't bought a copy of the script yet, but I'm certainly curious. There have been a few think pieces recently talking about how JK should just stop, or that she's messing with childhoods. And I don't see that. There's always going to be a clamouring for more insight into that world, and I'll probably see or read anything that may happen in the future. But I do so somewhat sceptically, not because it's going to ruin the original story for me, but because I don't think anything can ever be better than it.

Remember that opportunity that arose but I didn't want to talk details incase I jinxed anything? Well, I'm starting a MA in a few months and there's quite an extensive reading list that I need to begin making my way through. I've joined a facebook group and the discussions happening on there have left me feeling very out of my depth already. They're all so organised and prepared, and my decision to apply was so spur of the moment I'm still processing the fact that I'm actually doing it. But I think I'll be okay. I think I can do it. And if it means I'll be even more busy that before, well, all the better.



xo


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20 comments:

  1. Eep! That is so exciting - I'm sure everything will work out just fine :) I wish you the best of luck lovely one! And also, Cursed Child! The stage play seems so magical with stunning sets, I hope you have a wonderful time <3 xxx

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  2. Oh wow, congratulations on the MA! I'm sure you will do brilliantly, I am even a little envious :) oh and Cursed Child <3 I'm with you on this, nothing can surpass the magic of the original books for me but I eagerly lap up anything relating to the wizarding world. And as someone who has seen and read it now, I think you will love it :) it's just unlike any other theatre production I've seen, so many gasps and laughs are waiting for you. Remember to look around the whole theatre too! xx

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    1. Thank you, Dani! I'm a little nervous (everyone in the facebook group seems to be very well read with pages of notes already and we've not even started yet!). The play was so wonderful, I haven't quite managed to find the words for it yet!

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  3. I really wish I could see Cursed Child in person! I'll have to make do with the script I guess. Exciting news about the MA, congratulations and good luck! You'll be amazing.

    Jane / deluminators

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    1. I really hope it travels, is recorded or streamed to cinemas or something. The script doesn't do it justice. Thank you, Jane!

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  4. Good luck for starting your MA, that's awesome news! x

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  5. I completely agree with finding the right kind of busy! I think I'm in the process of doing that at the moment - knowing when to stop and when to let things go, particularly when it comes to work and writing. I wish you lots of luck with your MA - you'll ace it :-)

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    1. It's a tough balance to find, right? Thank you!

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  6. I'm definitely a believer that using more ideas only gives you even more ideas! Good luck with your freelancing :) // I lost a contact lens down the drain last month, but I got a new pair, so I'm really happy about that! // Congrats on starting your MA!!! // Happy August :) -Audrey | Brunch at Audrey's

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    1. Ahh yes, they're so easy to lose! Thank you <3

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  7. I often get stuck in the wrong busy, taking on more than I can chew and somehow managing it which leads to even more busy. It's a vicious circle. I've finally signed up to finish my MA starting in September. I have two modules left, though with working full time, I don't know how I'm going to manage that one!

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    1. You'll do brilliantly, I'm sure of it!

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  8. How exciting, wishing you all the best with the MA. I know what you mean about finding a happy busy haha. I realllly want to see the Cursed Child!

    T x

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    1. It's so incredible, you must get tickets if you're able to!

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  9. Congratulations on the MA news Jennie, that's fantastic and I'm sure you'll do wonderfully! I'm looking forward to hearing about the Cursed Child, hope you enjoy! x

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  10. I <3 contact lenses, they actually make me see clearer, my mum says it's because they're closer to your eye? I have quite a strong prescription now though so my old ones don't work anymore.
    I'm so impressed that you're going for an MA. That's amazeballs! :) Have you started reading the book reading list already?

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    1. I think that's true! Ahh thank you, I'm hoping the overwhelmed feeling goes away soon haha. I'm about half way through the list so far, wanted to get at least one read through of every text before starting!

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