Waking up is one of my favourite parts of the day because everything is a blur. I cannot remember a time when my eyes opened on a new day and were able to see clearly on their own. And I don't miss it. The blur has become comforting. The hazy glow the light that sneaks through the gap between the curtains gives the objects I have chosen to surround myself with makes them appear almost transcendent, as if they are both there and not there simultaneously.
I pad downstairs, avoiding the floor lamp and that one chair that doesn't quite tuck under the dining room table as well as the others, to the kitchen for my morning cup of tea, my cup always in the same place. Reaching for the back door key I unlock it, taking my cup of tea outside to soak in the early morning light, this time avoiding the rock we use to stop the bin from blowing over when it's windy outside and the watering can we have yet to find a better place to put. There is a certain calmness that comes from knowing where things are, even when I cannot see them. It is truly incredible how adaptive we humans can be. I only need to stub my toe once on something before I add it to the map inside my head, there for future reference so I remember to take a half step to the left or to the right next time.
The spindly skeleton branches of the tree that hasn't yet thrown on its green overcoat look feathered at the edges, like they're made of whispers or are waving 'hello, how are you?' at me really quickly. Their deep grey colour splays across the peach hued morning sky like a million and one daytime constellations, or hazy veins. And every morning I look at my own veins as I'm warming my hands on my cup of tea and I am reminded how lucky I am to be here, to be alive and able to see another day. We are made up of memories and moments. And how precious these moments are.
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This post filled me with such a lovely warm fuzzy feeling <3 really enjoyed reading this, thank you for sharing xx
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I love these moments too, when you're not quite awake, but not quite asleep either. A perfect in-between :) -Audrey | Brunch at Audrey's
ReplyDeleteI love the way you write, Jennie )
ReplyDeleteYour writing style is so lovely and really draws strong imagery and emotion at once, which is definitely my favourite quality in peoples work.
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This post made me feel so happy, need to remember to appreciate these little things!
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Love your writing! Such a lovely image of the morning :D
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I love those blurry seconds in the morning, just as much as you! Love your writing and I adore the photo!
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Really lovely Jennie <3 Another delightful piece of writing! xxx
ReplyDeleteYou write so beautifully Jennie :)
ReplyDeleteYes, the stacking up of the little things in life make the big all the more joyful. I love this. x
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I just adore your writing style lovely. You have such a wonderful way with words, so much so upon reading his I felt like I was there with you. I love mornings, I love waking up to the beam of sun that hits my pillow, although sometimes the pugs beat the beam of sun and wake me up with little scruffles (made up word possibly) instead, which I love just as much. x
ReplyDeleteWhat a lovely bit of writing (as usual :) )
ReplyDeleteI like the bit where I wake up and my covers feel extra comfy and soft and I am so relaxed and peaceful I just lay dozing for a while. It's not often, usually I wake up panicking or anxious or in pain. But these rare times of peace are so lovely.
I'm the same before putting my glasses on! Beautiful writing!
ReplyDeleteYou're a stellar writer Jennie. love it :D
ReplyDeleteI really enjoyed reading this Jennie! I just wish I could only stub my toe on something once, i'm a serious restubber. It's become a torturous problem! xo
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love this... : ) i'm not a morning person too but i do enjoy the mornings where i wake up and get to leisurely sip tea and open up to the world. i'm short sighted too so i echo you on the comfort of blurriness!
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Such a lovely piece of writing Jennie. This made me feel lovely xx
ReplyDelete< 3 this post Jennie. There's nothing better than a morning when I can live in a hazy blur for a little while instead of having to switch on and start moving straight away. I love summer mornings when it is warm enough to go outside and listen to the outdoors for a bit - so peaceful.
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I love when you write these types of posts, Jennie: your writing is so beautiful, I just love getting lost in these little moments you share.
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Oh Jennie. I hope you write a book one day. I just love the way you write, it really touches me!
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I love how you write, I too cannot remember a time when I woke up and could see properly but unlike you I don't appreciate it. I grab my glasses as soon as I can. This made me want to spend I few minutes of my day without them on.
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beautifully written. I'm not a morning person, but you almost had me :)
ReplyDeleteYour writing is so beautiful, I could print our ebeth one of your posts and frame them :)
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Will never ever tire of reading your beautiful words Jennie! You have such a natural gift, your words flow so stunningly and effortlessly and the scenery, imagery and vividness they produce is beyond incredible. So strong and powerful. I agree with Tara, I so hope you write a book one day. I'd like nothing more than to have it on my shelf, just like millions and billions of others, I know it! <3
ReplyDeleteSo proud of you in all you do. You really are an absolute inspiration to so many.
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