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Wednesday, 2 September 2015

Dear September.

You are the beginning of my favourite time of the year and although I can't quite believe you're here so soon, it's undeniably really great to see you.

I'm looking forward to mugs of peppermint hot chocolate, baking ginger biscuits, digging out the extra cosy pyjamas I stashed away at the beginning of summer, wearing wellies and splashing in puddles, drawing the curtains and snuggling under a blanket little earlier each evening, silly novelty slippers, listening to the patter patter of raindrops on the window and misty mornings.

An opportunity to travel may be on the horizon soon and I feel like I should be seizing it with both hands. Although there aren't many things that frighten me, aeroplanes certainly do. It's a deep fear that overwhelms my very being. And I suppose it's a little bit silly really because I have been on a plane before and it was fine. I was thirteen and oblivious to everything about flying that now scares me. My rational side knows that statistically I'm probably far more likely to step out of my front gate and be hit by a car than I am to be involved in any kind of air accident. But I can't shake my irrational side that sees a plane and shrieks danger. danger. danger.

It's a strange feeling knowing what I should do, but not being entirely sure if I'll be able to. But it's not even that I'm letting an irrational fear overwhelm a desire to travel. I admire those who possess a real need to travel, to see the world and go on great adventures. But I am not one of those people. It appears that I missed that section entirely when life dreams were being dished out. How ridiculous does that sound? I'm not that fussed about going to see another part of the world with my own eyes. Believe me, I know how silly that is. And I know that I should just do it anyway because, well, it will enhance my life experience more than staying within the familiar, and I know it would be good for me, but I suppose only time will tell if I actually make it or not.

For now it's time for a mug of hot chocolate because it's chilly and a bit rainy, and the joy of being an adult means I totally can even though it's early.

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  1. Some people simply aren't hardwired with that desire to travel, and that's perfectly okay, but I definitely think it's something to try as the experience will most definitely change you. x


  2. You know what, Jennie, I wasn't one of those people who went traveling either but last year I did. And it was the best thing I ever did, so I'm going again for longer next year. Don't think about it, just go - if you don't like it, you can always return. There is always a way of coming back if you really hate but I reckon it will change your life because it changed mine :) xx

    Sam // Samantha Betteridge

  3. Peppermint hot chocolate sounds utterly dreamy! I hope September is great for you, Jennie! Is there any way you could travel via boat or train maybe? That might help a little bit xx

  4. I like the idea of travelling but often when I'm there I'm just wishing I was back home! But I think that's because I've never been abroad to anywhere particularly inspiring, I'd be more interested visiting cities like Paris and Barcelona rather than sitting by a pool in Gran Canaria. But even though there are places I'd like to see it's not the top of my priorities and I don't really get that wanderlust feeling. But I hope you don't let fear hold you back from doing anything you want to do (although I know that's way easier said than done!) x

    Josie’s Journal

  5. I love this time of year!! I much prefer it to Summer! I just love layering big cosy jumpers and wearing my beanie hats! I know what you mean about flying! I used to fly regularly back and forth from Mallorca whilst I lived there, and I swear to god, every time I stepped onto that plane, I would fear it even worse than the time before - strange isn't it. You just have to remember, that anything bad could happen at any time, and it is completely out of our control. When your time's up, it's up. So try and be fearless :) xxxxxx

    Zoe Newlove Beauty Blogger & MUA

  6. I am afraid of taking airplanes, too and I wish just as you do
    that I'd still have that carefree mind that I had when I was a child.
    But I am pretty sure you are going to make it and then you will
    see a new and wonderful side of this world - and that's definitely worth
    the fear. ;)


  7. Where are you going Jennie! You should travel because
    travel widens your horizons c: I understand the fear of
    flying because even I flew a lot before, I still am aware
    of the unthinkable.
    Xx Ice Pandora

  8. I am exactly the same when it comes to travelling.I am quite content with going on holiday for a week and exploring but haven't a real desire to go travelling off to distant countries, I much prefer to explore in Great Britain. I found it hard to explain this to my friends when many of them finished university and went on gap years to explore, I stayed at home and worked. I do love adventure, I just don't have the thirst to adventure that far from my home! (: x

  9. Autumn is always my favourite time of the year. The leaves are so pretty, and you get to be all cosy and warm in jumpers and scarves.

    I feel you on your fear of flying. I used to be scared of it, but I've done it a few times on my own over the last couple of years that it doesn't really bother me now. I still don't love it, but it doesn't scare me any more.

    It's hard for me to give you advice really because I love the idea of traveling, and I would say do it. But if you don't like it, or don't want to, then don't feel you have to go because you're supposed to.

  10. Jennie, you don't need to travel, but you MUST give it a go at least once. I can't explain how travel completely changed my entire perspective and feelings towards everything.
    Like you - the idea of flying or even travelling was so unknown and alien to me. I hated the idea and just couldn't getting to grips with the practicality of it all took a long time.

    But, then it hit me. And it hit me hard. There is not a single day which passes by without me pining for adventure. My deepest dreams all center around travel and I know that travel is a massive learning curve.
    I know you will follow your heart, and I know you will find your path. I just know.

    x x x

  11. Love this - I've been feeling down about the end of the summer but need to try to see the good in every season and that there is more to autumn then darkness and grey. Personally I love travel and genuinely feel like I NEED to but I know so many people who aren't fussed. I think if the opportunity is there you should grasp it as you never know - I used to think I wasn't a "travel" person until my gap year. Think how much better my savings would look if I hadn't got hooked! x

  12. I completely agree with you! I love autumn and being all cosy, homemade hot chocolates (I've never tried peppermint ones though).

    Casey - ATopsyTurvyBlog

  13. I haven't been on as much as I used to, and I absolutely missed your writing

    I love this time of year as well! The leaves start changing colors, the weather starts to cool down, you can start to cuddle up by the fire with hot chocolate and and good book.

    I love reading your letters to the month. I hope you have a good time wherever you go. Just remember, in a couple years, when you look back on this time, do you want to look back at some good memories traveling, or do you want to wish that you had traveled. It's nice to experience change and different cultures. But don't force yourself if you don't want to.

    -Ash x

  14. I always love these posts so much. I have the same thing with flying even though I've been on over 200 flights I have developed a strange fear of flying!

    hellomissjordan.com xx

  15. This is how I felt for so long until I went to Florida last year! My desire to go to Disney/HP just outweighed my fear in the end and it ended up being much better than I thought. I still don't really enjoying flying or airports, but I know it's just one small part of the overall holiday. My best tip is to make sure you have everything you might need (such as travel sickness medication etc) so that you don't have any additional worries to think about! I'm quite a homebody too but sometimes it's nice to see a new place and maybe gain a new perspective :) xxx

  16. I'm sure you'll make the right decision for you xx

    Ioanna | Hearting.co.uk

  17. Aww, well it's refreshing to read your honesty about this at least! I think perhaps a lot of people don't feel the need to travel because maybe they haven't done it much so they don't know what's out there, but if you went to a new place and really fell in love with it it might ignite that in you and make you want to see the world.

    But either way it would be a great step for you to get past your fear of flying - at least you know that it's irrational, but we all have irrational fears of something, and hopefully you can get past it one day and whether or not you fall in love with travelling at least you'll have been able to try and you'll know it's not fear that's stopping you. :)

    jessica - littlehenrylee.com

  18. I encourage you to do it! Reel in a big bucketful of grit, courage, excitement (whatever you want to call it) from the deep well that is most definitely in you.

    You wouldn't regret it--and maybe that's just enough.

  19. Lovely post Jennie! I'm sure you wouldn't regret it if you did decide to go for it - I always find travelling really inspiring, it really helps me see things from a new perspective. Then again, everyone is different, so there's no reason to feel bad if you decide not to :)

    Jess xo

  20. I've always said I was a Summer person but I am secretly looking forward to everything Autumnal!

    Hopefully one day your desire to travel will outweigh your fear of flying. It's all about making that first step in changing a thought pattern - which only you can do. I know that sometimes these things are easier said that done, but I know you'll find a way to overcome it one day. :) xxx

  21. I do hope you're able to get away and embrace other parts of the world! The need to travel is definitely within me, I start to feel sad if I haven't been on holiday for a while...We spent our house deposit on travelling the world and although I love how things are right now, I'd still like to hop on a plane and jet off tomorrow....

    Tara x

  22. I need to get me some hot chocolate! I'm the same with planes, absolutely hate them, but I am such a travel addict that I made the decision that even though I pretty much have a panic attack everytime I fly, I'm not going to let it stop me seeing the world! I'm a bit better now than I was, no more crying at least!! x

    Jasmin Charlotte

  23. September is slowly coming to an end. Time seems to be flying by faster and faster each day.
    I hope you had a great beginning of autumn so far and that you're traveling right now and enjoying every minute of it!
    If not, don't worry. Nothing silly about not feeling the desire to discover the whole world.

    Anyway, hope to read from you soon again with positive news! :)



  24. I am SO BEHIND on blog posts, I'm just catching up with about two months worth of posts from all my favourite bloggers. This is a wonderful list, Jennie, I always enjoy your "Dear month" posts. I was dreading September for a huge number of reasons and wrote a bit of a moany post about it over on my blog, but every time I see somebody glad that September is here it bucks me up a bit - yours especially, because everything you've listed is most definitely something to look forward to and Autumn is really fun. I hope you've had a wonderful September xx


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